to fly.

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

I am really really really tired.

SCHOOL have been keeping me busy, projects to be done, presentations to be ready and what makes everything more delightful would be the cheery on the shepherd pie - TESTS. =]

I LOVE SCHOOL ALL SO SUDDENLY.

SIGH. wth

1:09:00 AM let 'em go.

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

I'm not a polished apple.
I adore Grey's Anatomy.
Jack Johnson fills up my playlist always.

Being random is quite my forte.

10:06:00 AM let 'em go.

Sunday, May 28, 2006

now with the Great Singapore Sale on,

bleahh.blogspot.com brings you this great offer! (OMGWTH)

k. I got this second-hand 4G ipod Nano (black) that I wish to sell off.

Tag me/email me @ jy_beryl@hotmail.com if u're keen.

Price is VERY negotiable. lols.

6:50:00 PM let 'em go.

caffine just kicked in, i'm hyper hyper hyper active.

5:37:00 PM let 'em go.

Saturday, May 27, 2006

sweetened coffee,

seems awful now.

10:50:00 PM let 'em go.

I miss those times when we quarrelled and how I got us going the wrong way.

10:20:00 PM let 'em go.

damn SUAY i tell u.

urghs.

I was supposed to go for this newspaper collection at Boon Lay.
Dad dropped me off at Yishun MRT.

I took out the psp, grabbed my wallet, went through the gates.

It was common knowledge/instinct of mine to turn right then up the escalator.
I wasn't actually paying much attention to where i'm going, just trying to get rid of the knot on the headphones.

ANYWAY. I heard someone calling out for me.
I turned and realised that the SMRT train officier(urghs, that guy who always stand in the middle staring at ppl coming through the gates, THAT ONE LOR) was calling out for me. I'm actually heading towards the wrong escalator (usual for me, unusual for him)
Guessed he found me suspicious, so he asked for my ez-link card.
For those out there who knows me quite well, u'll know i'm always holding onto my brother's card.

WELL.

I think I handled it well u see. Could get oscars already.
Feigning ignorance, I said, "Oh, sure!"
Took my wallet out, and passed him my brother's ez-link.
I just did the fake "Oh my god! I think my brother took the wrong card out from my wallet!"
yada yada yada.

The guy just decided to retain my card, gave me a slip and asked me to wait for a letter from HQ. I'll just collect it nx time with my brother =]

So now, I lost my ez-link AND my brother's ez-link.

Not just THIS incident today, still got MORE ok!
Nevermind, after so many bad things that happened, i'm sure good luck's on its way.

3:03:00 PM let 'em go.

Friday, May 26, 2006

11:29:00 PM let 'em go.

Thursday, May 25, 2006

there's no school today.

We went to pick up some materials for our I&E proj.
Mummy miaoxia and sista Huiqi decided to come over to my place to complete the designs.

WELL.

WE HAD A ROARING TIME.

(+videos + pictures)

WO DE TIAN!!!!!!

10:20:00 PM let 'em go.

Monday, May 22, 2006

i'm sick of seeing those emails already.

just came back fr the office, had a long day. indeed.
i slept at four am last night.
now, i'm still so alive, very much bustling with energy. bahhhs.

11:22:00 PM let 'em go.

i woke up at 11pm.

staggered as I walk towards the kitchen.
i made coffee unknowingly.

went up to my room.
took the first sip.
-> it's without sugar.

i set it aside.
did some small talk with peeps online.

took another sip.
I kinda realised and understood what Dad meant finally.
It's sweet. and not bitter anymore.

I'm so used to this bitterness, that it tasted otherwise now.
no, wait. not this way.
How should I put it.
I tasted sweetness as i savour this cup of bitter black coffee.

Now, it felt there's this invisible strength that pulled me closer to the heartstrings of daddy's.

oh, and in other words.
I've attained erm. fruit. xiu chen zhen guo, zhui gao jing jie

12:48:00 AM let 'em go.

Sunday, May 21, 2006

Get me a simmon's bed.

Anyway.

On friday night, i received a call from mongmong (quite surprised though, coz I don't really receive calls from ah mong, except if it's regarding mahjong.hees)
They're out cycling and decided to drop by my hse. pitstop?
Had a longggggggg chat. ten plus till nearly one a.m i think?
It's nice seeing them again =]
I think it have been months since I last had such long talks with nern. maybe a year. no, since the day I left SRJC. yes.

Come fishing at my backyard OK! =] mong mong you too! as an ex-scout, you shall do outdoor-cooking. hahhahas.

Yesterday.

Reached Boon Lay mrt station @ 9am.
i'm not going to complain about the heat, the tiring walks, the scary dog behind door thingy. BAHS.
Rather, I'll thank the nice soya bean drink offered, appreciate the slacky breaks we took, laugh at the pleasant surprise we had(we actually bumped into a classmate, Yan Jie, while distributing flyers at Block 661A, Floor 12 how cool is that!?)

After all the sweat and slacks, sua qiz and I had lunch @ Siam Kitchen.
Then I went to look for Dad at this workplace.
when i got into the car, i asked him so many questions but was SO COMPLETELY IGNORED. again.
Jojo says: "its normal"
ok. it is lah.
But I understand, he's really weak.

爹爹，get well soon!!

Soke Bao and Jojo brought along two friends over my place. Lixia and Sihan. They're nice people. clickable =)
I felt so sorry for Lixia, she got scarded by a toad, then a baby snake dropped on her while she's walking out to the bus stop. WO DE TIAN!! **GASPS** so sorry mans. it's indirectly my fault. hahas.
I really think that even though they're in nyjc, they always seem to be so free for mahjongs!
Thanks for the present and the lovely card a.k.a surprise. =]
LOVE IT!
**MUACKS**

After this week, I guess everyone would be busy mugging already. Mid-years, common tests and all. Study smart, play hard.

mahjong makes a healthy brain!

5:52:00 PM let 'em go.

too tired to blog.

details tmr. many many many.

12:45:00 AM let 'em go.

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Felt so cheated.

screw it.

11:22:00 PM let 'em go.

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

oh, and to add on.

The BBC News 24 cock-up cracked me up earlier this morning. HAHHAHAHHAS.
and it still do.
wrong interviewee interview.
black guy? white guy?

wo de tian.

i seriously doubt that the producer's colourblind or smth. no correction, he's "BLIND". bahhhhs.

but such incidents tend to spice up everything aint it.
apart from share indexs, oil prices, george bush and MORE oil prices.

The wrong GUY indeed.

11:09:00 PM let 'em go.

certain things don't seem that interesting.
especially after much replication from others.

10:45:00 PM let 'em go.

dad came to pick me up from causeway point earlier.
I BOUGHT MY FIRST 4D TICKET LEGALLY!!! WOOTS!
HUAT HUAT HUAT AH!!!!

i tell u, dad and i have come to this decision that,
wednesdays, saturdays and sundays will be ba zhang and bao day.
go figure. =]
attractive prizes to be won!

Had pastamania for lunch with the rest of the girls.
Edna couldn't join us coz she has this performance @ the atrium. I bet you sang well gurl!~

Qiz, shuying, whoisshe and tweety bird brought their childhood pictures to share, main objective is purely for fun, joy, and laughter. you get what i mean right. lols. All of us went crazy when huishi flashed her photo with that two "cockroach feelers".WAHAHHAHHAS!

AND I FORGOTTEN TO BRING mine!! bahhhhs. friday would be another sharing session.
heez. gonna be really~ WHEEEEEEE~~~~~~~~~~~~~

gonna update more lata.

5:41:00 PM let 'em go.

Had a great time earlier~
When the lights went off, I REALLY THOUGHT they r closing. =_=
little do i know that it's a surprise. hahas.. thanks alot sistas and brothers!
Sua, qiz, weisheng, ~~rebecca~~ cedric and le hong !

um. i shud really be cracking on my fmgt tutorial instead of blogging.

shall update soon. =] ciaos!

12:36:00 AM let 'em go.

Sunday, May 14, 2006

last night was a blast. =]
the mahjong, the food, the laughter, the football ROARS. wheeee.

Jojobanana: i love the WAHAHHAHAHHAS we had. =] and little stuff that happened during the bbq. LOVE U!!
BaoBao: after 12 its our day remember? heez. and we recouped $4.5o. being bankrupt for like thrice is like so fun! no liabilities!! lols.
Welcome to quek family, you got urself two new husbands. =] muacks!*
Mongmong: you know what, my mum n grandma praised u! U're the hardworking and really nice boy who barbeque the food fer us! u're so popular ok! lols. thanks for the chocolates~ =)
Kimmy: u're the next similar nice boy too! lols. i don't agree though. Thanks for the prezzies~ xie xie ni!
Huiying: you know, i think yesterday is like the first time i've taken a photo with you alone? hahas.. since sec1, i dun think u've changed. still as sweet as before. =]
Rj & melvin & disheng: YOU ALL! WHAT'S WITH FOOTBALL? hahahhhas. Thanks for the cake. delicious !
Danny: eh, u still owe me that birthday handshake remember? BAHHHS! anyway, u're like getting better in mJ.
Famous amos: i heard u took a cab down in the middle of the night to this girl's house to deliver supper!?!? OMG!
Joel: man. u're the BIG winner rightttt!!!!!!!!! congrats congrats. so there is where the $5.50 me and soke hwa lost at mahjong went. MEERRRCIIIIIII~~~~~~~~~~~~~ thanks alot=]

Last but not least, THANKS for coming~!
xie xie da jia~

10:15:00 PM let 'em go.

i don't know why, but for the whole day, this song's in my head.

tank - gei wo ni de ai.

10:13:00 PM let 'em go.

so many pictures! not yet uploaded. will be up asap!!

soke bao's currently in her lala land now, and you know what? Given a queen size bed, normally one would either sleep on the left or right(knowing that someone's gonna share it with you) but my ever so lovely baobao, NOooo!!! she chose to sleep in the middle, with her arms spread widely across =]

i tell you, the greatest joy in eating is to have the whole bbq pit to yourself. Only after the main bbq session, with someone beside you chatting about the good old days, soaking into the night scenery(is there any?), and having all the yummyfood all laid in front of u. While the others sink themselves in that cut-throat-battle of mahjong!!!
THAT'S BETTER THAN ANYTHING.

well, i'm tired. bahhhs....

i really need to get myself a nice, thick notebook/organiser.
I have so many things in mind to be done, but I tend to forget them so easily. ROARS, temp.memoryloss. Or is it, selective memory loss?
the latter would fit better. isn't it?

5:14:00 AM let 'em go.

11th May -
whoisshe, sista qiz, jieyin, shuyin, mummy miaoxia, bu lai na brenna, edna, max.
we had pepperlunch, and the phototaking sessions which made us all cracked up. =]
The ever so unique way of presenting a gift, i had a shock! but, love it till bits~ *muacks*
thanks for everything.

5:07:00 AM let 'em go.

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

i suddenly thought of jojo. well, been long since i last met up with her.

Had a long day, sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

bahhs. i should really get myself an external harddisk. SPACE IS RUNNING OUT ! SIALA!

11:48:00 PM let 'em go.

When i thought it would be my day, it wasn't.

the disappointment. and everything.
made me feel like just snuggling up next to dad, and knowing that at least he loves me. no less than anyone else. at least, i'm not shortchanged

the damn fmgt tutorial that made me felt so frustrated and cranky.
and the relentless battle of.. SIGH.
trying to put off the past, but it never fail to find its way back to me.

HELL.i tell u.

ksaljdsa;lkfjdslkfjdslfakdsjfl;dsajflsakd;fjas;dghslkd;jafoiewfpowemfklsadflsadjfoiawe

SIANZATIONS.
SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN

12:09:00 AM let 'em go.

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

First and foremost,

I couldn't face this person and talk straight at him for more than 5 mins, or i might just *BLOW*up*

I'm starting to revert back to my old ways, pure laziness and imcomplete tutorials.

Things tend to get on my nerves these days. If I may or already did lose my cool on you, I apologise.

I dread the day coming, queer huh? but it is.

8:37:00 PM let 'em go.

this is like so long ago... =]

1:09:00 AM let 'em go.

I felt so down and rotten the week before. and now, with all the emotional support that we share, i felt so much better. Thank you BAO!!

you made me smile and almost teared reading those messages you saved in my phone's folder.
and I didn't realise how nice really was to receive such heartwarming messages at the start of the day. =] *smiles*

12:39:00 AM let 'em go.

Monday, May 08, 2006

i missed 20 mins of grey's anatomy. ROARS!

10:23:00 PM let 'em go.

Sunday, May 07, 2006

i spent my night over at her house.
something seems amiss from her,
and I know what's all behind these.
Sometimes I couldn't help feel so useless for not being able to share her burden,
and bringing back the old her.
I miss her outrageous laughter.

We share something special, and i cherish that very much.
This year, how would it be like?
I don't really look forward to the following week, for it brings me uncertainity.
No matter what, I know there's still you.
I have no idea if you'll be seeing this post or not, but I would just like to thank you for everything. And apologise for not being able to help much.

Sister Samantha loves you!

on the brighter side, I got myself a pretty nice wallpaper. =] small things really makes my heart content.

11:09:00 PM let 'em go.

Saturday, May 06, 2006

celebrated shuying's birthday last week, till yesterday then i got all the pictures from sister qiz.

We took quite awhile to cut the cake remember? heez.

originality is created, not duplicated.

for just 2 weeks in school, it seems that most of the modules are rather similar to one another. It all talks about entrepreneurship, innovative, creativity, yada yada yada blasdasd.

ECD and I&E?

BORING.

2:02:00 PM let 'em go.

When you're close to tears remember
Some day it'll all be over.

12:27:00 AM let 'em go.

Friday, May 05, 2006

Behind these concrete walls behind me, i could faintly hear the ever-so-familiar song that we used to sing along in Cambodia.
"Mouse love rice"

10:36:00 PM let 'em go.

Thursday, May 04, 2006

i changed my mind.
i want love. care. concern. fun. laughter. peace. and joy.

BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHSSSSS.

so digressing.

10:32:00 PM let 'em go.

my greatest wish in life is to have starbucks right at my doorstep.

10:27:00 PM let 'em go.

i don't know what made me decide to edit this picture.

well, i think i dropped the chicken wing. which explains the spastic expression. "awww... no more chicken"

12:12:00 AM let 'em go.

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

wo de tian. (meaning : omg)

i like this.

i've been reciting this to anyone i come across at home.
My sentence begins with wo de tian. and it ends with wo deeee TIANNNNNNNNNN CAN!!

i'm exceptionally happy ~~today~~ tonight.

WEIRRRDDD.

At times, when I feel so confused and stressed out.
I'll tell myself to just take everything in stride,
and.
things, just so happen to turn out even better than expected (rare times, but still, it happened)

11:37:00 PM let 'em go.

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

talk about KARMA.

I'll just begin with what happened at LT45.

Short description of our dear Mr. Pang :
Basically, he's in his early fifties(?),
slightly oversized,

loves kopi/teh/teh-O @ Canteen 1,
wears a ~~limited edition~~ antique sort of squared-rimmed-thick glasses,
receding hairline,
easy-going,
dotes on his nieces and god-daughters but has no children.

*RP>rotten papaya>brother hong

lets continue.

[Recall: Ms Chen once told us that she often see Mr Pang with these two slices on papaya on both hands. Ok, lets just picture Mr Pang indulging into his papayas. one bite on da left, then the right, then THE LEFT, then the right again. (it goes on till there's no papaya)]

Then our lecturer, Evelyn lim asked us whether we like to eat papayas. She then flashed this quite interesting article, it actually stated that papayas decrease men's sex drive. yada yada...

I kinda thought of RP but brushed it off my mind, it doesn't really make any linkage.

Out of a sudden, MR PANG just came into mind.
That thought just made me burst into laughter in that rather-quiet lecture theatre.
sista huiqi turned and stared at me in amazement.
It's a rather stupid to be laughing alone.

Trying so hard to calm myself down, supressed that laughter. I said, "remember mr pang and his two papayas?"
WAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHS
there they go. =]

I don't know why, but i think these days, i'm rather capable of such rubbishology stuff.

you see, things happen.
while i was just taking a shower earlier, suddenly, the lights flickered, FLICKERS MORE, MORE MORE MORE. AND . BLANK. WTF. and it's like nearly 12am. FREAKED ME OUT OK. BAHHHS.
I could still remember getting these light bulbs changed last week with dad.

Guilt just sets in, build its way into the inner walls of my arteries.
I began to recall the times when i mimic HER @ gelare, and the mean things we tend to say, and the teasings that we used to play on RP, and the OMGs..... urgh.

yes, talk about KARMA indeed.

11:57:00 PM let 'em go.

Where you'd go,
I miss you so,
seems like been forever
that you've gone...
Please come back home.

I don't know why, but i've been singing along these lines wherever i go.

11:53:00 PM let 'em go.

Monday, May 01, 2006

sometimes, i really miss the beautiful sky over at Cambodia.

11:28:00 PM let 'em go.

Time is irreversible.
I need to take back that slap I gave right at the back of their heads.
But i'm filled with bloody anger now.
I don't know what is right. or is that wrong?

i just wished that that scream wouldn't trigger any emotions in me then, but it did.

i'm feeling so flustered right now. wth.

I couldn't curb my anger then.
i don't understand why they couldn't just think for themselves and get through with something so simple.
Sometimes i just feel that what they really needed most now, is to experience failure
and fall right hard on their faces and see what reality is.
WAke up.

for now, i really hate them.

p.s. i know it's not really nice to talk about hate, but i just need to get something off my chest before I drown myself in such dissapointment and rage.

6:50:00 PM let 'em go.