to fly.

Sunday, April 30, 2006

tomorrow's a hooolliiiddaaayyyy~~ wheee!!

been yearning for swee choon's dim sum @ jalan besar for like, ermz... forever!
Me: "tomorrow's a holiday, we go eat hao mah?"
Dad: "twelve lor"
Me: "12am or 12pm?"
Dad: " zero zero zero zero."

*****SMILES*****

HUNGRY !!!

6:21:00 PM let 'em go.

Saturday, April 29, 2006

Things just hadn't been going smoothly.

First was the bus incident whereby I mistaken 154 as 74.
Next, I took out 100 Thai Baht thinking that I'll be getting soya bean drink for the girls.
Then, i thought on friday, we would need to photocopy notes. I asked Sista Huiqi the night before, and was told that it wasn't necessary. However, i cleanly forgotten bout it the next morning, and I asked the same question again. -___-

Talk about temporary memory loss huh.
However, some classify these syndroms as being blur.
tell me bout it.

10:34:00 PM let 'em go.

Thursday, April 27, 2006

where'd you go, i miss you so.

Emotions stirred, i want to be back there again.
it was a complicated and awkward feeling all churned together now.
sadness, longings, disappointment, and the ever-standing love we shared.

I had an exceptionally pleasant surprise from huiqi, then after, followed by the drastic news which no one expected.

the same old feeling of anxiety found its way back to me again.

11:54:00 PM let 'em go.

heaved a sigh of relief.
thank god, everything is over now.

today's morning was made special with the following unexpected occurances:

The moment I stepped out of the house, i was greeted by this lovely rainbow.
Then, while dad and I was on the road, I spotted another TWO RAINBOWS across the sky. TWO people. TWO!

well, i just thought that today would be my lucky day.

Apparently, what happened earlier didn't occur to me that I was lucky, at all.

I mistaken 154 as 74. (laugh go on)
And it took me quite awhile to realise I'm in the wrong bus.
Alighted, crossed the road. supposed to turn RIGHT, but I went left instead. wtf.
Again, it took me even a longer time to realise that I was actually travelling at a opposite direction to the actual bus stop. ( walked for 500m at least )

It was a mistaken after another. How nice.
I bet if Sister Huiqi sees this, she'll flip and laugh. Sista! zo ~~kang~~ kan. make bamboo eh? LOL

slept at 2am, woke up at 645am for IS class.
We kept ourselves motivated and very much alert in order to finish up the remaining proposal for the fund raising project.
Guess what kept us awake huh.
We went thru the photos taken @ Cambodia again.BAHHHS. I tell u, this could be my 30th time viewing it already. Nevertheless, these photos never fail to make our hearts flutter with joy.

6:56:00 PM let 'em go.

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

if only, it wasn't you.

1:14:00 AM let 'em go.

End of holidays. A new semester.
Day 1

I was so desperate into finishing my writeup that I brought along a huge notebook and started scribbling on the bus. sigh.
oh yea, I got something for myself today, happy me!

PS: the horoscope thing is super accurate ok.

I was just telling my friend that my first criteria for a husband - to be willing to walk down the dark stairway with me in the middle of the night, just because i'm afraid of the dark and I need water.

and this is today's overview.

what's been happening in your love life lately? A good place to start, when you answer that question, is with yourself. Whether you're single or solidly committed, how are you feeling? Connected, disconnected? What are your expectations of a relationship? What are your expectations of a life?
Do you think people are meant to be together or are fundamentally alone? How do expectations play out in the way you relate to others? Food for thought, eh?

expectations - oh hell yes.

12:06:00 AM let 'em go.

Sunday, April 23, 2006

i hate working with lady bosses. correction - THAT lady boss.

no,

now, i really detest her.

And smth random, straits time horoscope is getting accurate lately.

12:25:00 AM let 'em go.

Saturday, April 22, 2006

Pussycat Dolls - Beep.

I had a long day, but it's all worth it. minus the "anti-climax" part from someone.

1:39:00 AM let 'em go.

Friday, April 21, 2006

What did I do today?

1. grandma found my old set of uniform (mayflower secondary school) and I decided to reignite the good OLD DAYS. I put them on, parade around the house, mimic our dear "president-nathan-national-day-wave". apparently, there's only the maid, the grandma and the brother. All wore the same expression on their faces the minute they see me, which spells - siow eh.

2. I decided to leave a not-so-normal testimonial to my fellow sistas who went Cambodia with me.

3.I hopped around, singing Twinkle Twinkle little star.

4.I went crazy online. Calculated how many kilograms of strawberries I have to eat everyday in order to measure up to 250k. actually, I miscalculated. =]

5.I drank two cans of diet coke, two bottles of green tea in an hour.

6.Write-up is still UNFINISHED.

7.I blogged this.

12:51:00 AM let 'em go.

Thursday, April 20, 2006

i was flipping through my old stuff.
I found so many "hidden treasures" alright.

This is what i wrote( i assume i was doodling during lecture )

What is the favourite four-letter word loved by all women on earth?

~~LOVE~~ SALE

12:56:00 PM let 'em go.

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

ok, right. I actually bounced back pretty fast.

Felt something was missing, i opened Windows Media Player>Library>JackJohnson

Playing - Better Together_In Between Dreams_Jack Johnson

I see the song playing, but I hear nothing.
Figured that it might be some error with the file, checked properties etc. etc.
after sometime of sourcing and stuff, i guess someone (me?) accidentally pressed the mute button on WMP.
THINGS JUST dont seem to be right today.
Oh yea, pardon the vulgarities. it was ~~human~~ my nature to spew out such stuff when exposed to any sudden shock.

The feeling of not being able to login to MSN when I really want to, just made me felt like I'm transported to some batu cave. isolated, ostracized?, segregated?, eh? oh well. you know what I mean.

12:23:00 AM let 'em go.

i was so distracted with the bloody reptile which lives in the same room as me that I actually didn't get to say what I really wanted in the previous post.

so, as I was saying, MSN.

Yeah, it broke down on me.
MSN Beta 8.0 is such a suckerfish. go figure.

12:15:00 AM let 'em go.

when you're feeling so pissed off, and so into the mood into going on MSN to rant you want, AND THEN FUCK*I JUST SAW A FUCKING FAT LIZARD crawling BEHIND MY TABLE. (I WAS JUST TYPING THE FIRST SENTENCE AND THIS BLOODY reptile APPEARED)

OMG> WTH> talk about karma.

i hate this.

damnit. DIE lizards DIE!

12:09:00 AM let 'em go.

Monday, April 17, 2006

somethings just don't seem to make sense, but indeed it happened.
The truth slapped me right hard on the face, hello reality.

I wake up everyday, despite the long sleeping hours, i still feel sleepy.
I need an energy pill.

3:55:00 PM let 'em go.

I keep them solely to myself, something which I can't speak of.
It haunts me sometimes, to think that such is happening.

12:49:00 AM let 'em go.

speaks for itself. =]

12:10:00 AM let 'em go.

Sunday, April 16, 2006

been four days since I last updated...

Recently, I was engaging in some small talk among my relatives.
Cousin 1: Oh yea, i take that too. it's really good.
Me: Yea, agree.
Cousin 2: But, one thing, it'll cause some side effects.
Me: what.
Cousin 1 & 2: you just get plump more easily.

UHUH. it's some health supplement that we're talking about, I feel so cheated lah! My mum insisted I should take it, being the goodie-goodie filial daughter(YES!) obviously I swallow the pills. been taking them since .. um... last june?

12:47:00 AM let 'em go.

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

what's the worst punishment that one could get is,

TO WATCH the people whom are innocent , to be punished for things that you've brought upon them.
And.feeling so fcuking useless for not being able be of any help.

I feel the anger, the anxiety, the pain,

and the choking revolting feeling down the throat.

11:49:00 PM let 'em go.

I feel so rotten.

omgwtfwth.

11:28:00 PM let 'em go.

wouldn't it be nice if broken promises could congregate itself again.
I hate the relentless battle of choices, sometimes decisions could be made effortlessly, or the other way round.
Everything very much evolves around the reactions of people, how they would feel, the outcome and such. And these factors easily turn into some mass brain cell killing machine, sigh. let alone when the issue's concern to the people whom are dear to you. combo pack i tell you.

I'm like living with guilt these days. Knowing too much is not really good for one.

Ignorance indeed is bliss.

11:12:00 AM let 'em go.

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

i just realised that,
the number of skincare products that my brother has, actually exceeds mine.
I did a rough count, and i can easily gather 10 different tubes of cleanser, scrubs etc.

This is freaking me out.
it started out with one clearasil, then ...... EVERYTHING PILES UP AT THE litttle righttt corner of my toilet.

oh my.

boys these days. sigh.

11:09:00 PM let 'em go.

Monday, April 10, 2006

changed my clothes.
and went thru the hassle of putting on "facepaint" (makeup in other words)
Was slipping my feet into the pair of heels, then came an incoming sms.

How pissed off I felt when I realised that it's an off day.

wonderful.

3:53:00 PM let 'em go.

Sunday, April 09, 2006

I just don't feel comfortable working with health supplements, or slimming teas, or stretch marks lotion. What a combo. HIT it.
That's what i'm promoting, oh yes. all at once, bingo.

Bills and expenses comes like clockwork, money is still so concerned.
STATISTICS showed that 9 out of 10 people, fret over money.
And where do i get the sample/parameter (whatever Business Statistics taught me) ?
Hello, meet Samantha, and Samantha, and Samantha. =]

The grass at the other side of the lawn is still greener. And it too applies to... umm.

Freshly plucked lilies, but what really made the heart sigh with contentment was not the flower, but the person who made the effort to sink her feet into the brownish-tehtarik-coloured lake to pluck them for you, thank you Vandee. I miss FGA, again.

6:16:00 PM let 'em go.

Friday, April 07, 2006

i'm currently uploading the photos to my laptop.
mygoodness, even such little things could set my heart stirring.
Well, if i'm not mad over kanann, i'm mad. =]

Got myself a job already, starting work tomorrow officially. should've been today, but i'm pretty lazy and everything just kind of happens too fast. Gonna meet up with jojo n the rest lata, for more catching up. I miss them soo much~!!

yesterday was great. I came all the way back after my job interview at Bugis, just to change a pair of shoes (coz they're killing me, damnit. freaking pain) then to sista zhihua's hse at Thomson. Met JOYCIE~ on 163, well, sista's fate. *smiles* Thanks sista for showing me the photos which will never fail to make me laugh OUT loud each time i see them.

Then it was Longhouse prawn noodles and goreng pisang!! yummilicious. though the weather is SUPER FINE then. my perspiration added into the prawn noodle that i'm savaging upon seemed to be the secret recipe. AHA!

viewing all the videos taken during the trip made us all laughed, whinned, screamed for embarrassment, teared, teased at, high on estacy, and everything and everything.

The first thought that came to my mind when I saw the videos was - "I miss them so much"

when can I hear them calling me, "sister samantha" again, when can I see their lovely faces again, when can I join them singing, when can I see rebekah play the guitar again, when can I take pretty pictures with phiearum being my "hair stylist", when can I let those girls tie my hair again.

when can i realise these again ?

1:46:00 PM let 'em go.

Thursday, April 06, 2006

meeting @ sista zhihua's place.
and sista joycee said she got a surprise for us.
muahahhahas.

can't wait!

12:12:00 AM let 'em go.

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

Ever since I've came back from Cambodia, I never really had a full 10-hour sleep, onlyyy till last night.

Been busy trying to finish all my letters to the kids in the FGAC, so that this lecturer could bring these letters over. She's flying off today to visit the home for "ground inspection". (Another team will be going on this Sept, so she's like visiting the place and see what they can do)
So, in this way, we saved on postage money coz it'll cost us a huge bomb, and they only receive letters like a few months later? YEAH! I'm like so excited, i hope they're reading my letter already~

I didn't slept till morning 6.30am the other day, but thinking that all these letters could get to them so soon, everything just paid off. I tell you, I wasn't that HARDWORKING even during exams. hahhas...

All these sleepless nights, in Cambodia, Thailand and now that I've accumulated,
i can feel my body gonna disfunction soon.
I think even hibernating for days wouldn't payback all that I needed.

SO, i think i need more lompang, tak-e-lok, yummy food from the FGAC, to give it a health boost or smth.
*slaps* i'm dreaming again.

4:38:00 PM let 'em go.

Monday, April 03, 2006

behind those bars of steel that we're separated,
I still see beauty in her eyes.

SieangEng or SieangEe?
She just had a shower.
I called out for her,
to pose a picture for me.
It's a sunny afternoon =]
Hand in hand, step by step,
I miss walking them to school.

11:24:00 PM let 'em go.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok. i feel much better.

12:29:00 AM let 'em go.

Sunday, April 02, 2006

i love him till bits.

3:48:00 PM let 'em go.

pissed. sigh.

it's ok. it'll all passs.

It's amazing how someone could be so nice to you, but be of the total opposite in just a snap of the fingers.

I feel like slapping that person when he gave that fc*king attitude of his, bastardised jerk.
pardon me for the vulgarities, but he's really an asshole. ALL and ALL, the ONLY one.

One more time, it's over.

12:55:00 AM let 'em go.

Saturday, April 01, 2006

took a cab home with joyce, I tell you, this is the FIRST time i'm afraid of walking back myself.
been missing such fear for quite a long time.

Was at Mac wif some of the girls, we started talking about all the stories about our secondary schools ( the unseen brothers ) and the mission house we stayed during the cambodia trip. my goodness, even when our environment was all packed with people happily sinking their teeth into their MacChickens, i felt so afraid. so are the rest.

URGHHHHHHhh

But still, i WILL go back to Cambodia.
I have all my sweethearts there already. hahahas. =]

11:29:00 PM let 'em go.

hey guys.

I'm BACK FROM CAMBODIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

12:29:00 AM let 'em go.