to fly.

Monday, February 27, 2006

Me: "OMG! I THINK i like girls!!" (a mere joke/comment)
Quote Jonathan: " Talk to the apple "

9:21:00 PM let 'em go.

If only we'd stop trying to be happy
we'd have a pretty good time.

Think of a happy moment that came up unexpectedly

Do you consciously pursue happiness?

9:14:00 PM let 'em go.

when i got home, i slept. till like now, almost six already.
in between, stuff happened and the tense atmosphere seemed to choke the airways of the already oxygen-deprived lungs of mine(darn weather, i felt that breathing was a chore)

Plans ruined, parents mad, siblings hurling fuck-offs all over the place.
And i'm having OB tmr. i can't believe this , but i barely started memorising anything.

Monday blues.
Everyone's cranky and pissed. The slightest thing could easily sparks off fiery emotions.
The hot weather made everything felt even worse than ever, i just wished that it'll rain almost every other day. POURING RAIN. RAIN!! I NEED RAIN!!

5:55:00 PM let 'em go.

Sunday, February 26, 2006

i always thought that monday - i'm having OB paper. and tuesday CIP.

BUT. hm. minutes ago, i just verified with another classmate, it's actually MON - CIP, TUE - OB.

THIS IS GREAT.

hm... but anyways, since after micro paper, i think i'm drowning myself in this pre-holidays mood.

More makan sessions with dad, and tv-watching.

From what you all know, i tend to be a fast-eater-who-gobbles-do-everything-in-front-of-me,

apparently.....

i found someone better.

I was happily eating eating eating....

Then, for the first time i looked up, i found myself staring at an empty plate.

oh yes. both plates of char guo tiao came at the same time, THIS IS DAD's.

Whereas mine, seemed barely started.

look,
there's another pair of chopsticks at the top of the picture.
It's dad chopsticks, HE'S SUCH A GREEDDDY pEEG.
HE finished his share first, SO HE CAN eat mine!!

tadaass.. that's fer today. =]
exams ending nx wednesday.
ASK ME OUT FOR MAHJONG OK. HAHAHHAS.

1:49:00 PM let 'em go.

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

study sessions at Dad's office was a total failure.
Instead of studying non-stop, endless mugging, I ended up walking around and chatting with almost everyone. I'm such a disturbance aint it. hahs.
But I can still be considered the perfect company for coffee breaks etc with Dad.
I think i had like four cups of coffee yesterday, but oh well.
it's the espresso machine that stands at the corner of the room, your espresso is just a button away!
bahhhs.

but having gone through the amount of information that I have to digest within the next few days, i felt my heartbeat increased by threefold. I need lots of blessings.

I'm in school now, revision session starts at 1030. And i reached school at bloody 8.45am
this is not willingly volunteered.

I've been munching on stuff ever since saturday, the amount of FOOD that i consume, it's quite unbelievable i actually still felt like eating after one packet of hokkien mee and one box of rojak.
I think i've been eating like 5 full meals a day.

RANDOMNESS(again)

9:04:00 AM let 'em go.

Sunday, February 19, 2006

The foolish man seeks happiness in the distance; the wise grows it under his feet.

Happiness adds and multiplies, as we divide it with others.

6:44:00 PM let 'em go.

Saturday, February 18, 2006

BA CARES organised a Refreshing Campus Run, I went (coz there's CCA Pts awarded) =] =]

Morning jog sure does feeeeel good.

Anyway, something happened after the run.

The actions of some people, really set me thinking.
And it's saddening to know that there are such people existing with such shallow thoughts.

I can't fucking understand what's the big deal with expensive gadgets.
Seriously, i condemn people from CATHOLIC HIGH SCHOOL, the POSERS to be specific.
SHALLOW PEOPLE. my brother to be PRECISE.
so what's with waving that damn piece of ipod in public.
you don't even know those freaking strangers out there, what's THERE TO boast?
Even so, who cares what your friends do if you didn't bring that piece of junk shit with you, so what they boo-ed you and claimed that you're a loser without it?
These people should be the ones being ostracised by the public, not YOU.
POINT your finger and laugh straight into their faces, for they are the ones who are just an empty shell inside, with no substance, filled with shallow thinking which does nothing but foams up into their arseholes.

Wished that he could gain some enlightenment through this incident, i could even see my youngest brother being sensible towards this issue.
Jon: " No big deal lar, dun bring only what, no idea why he's so fucking pissed"
at least, my lil brother and I see eye to eye.

3:41:00 PM let 'em go.

Friday, February 17, 2006

Stress have been leading me to nowhere but food.
Dinner at 7sharp. Dad came back at 8.30, we went for "sub-dinner" aka "early supper"
But i realise something, desmond once told me that in order to eat till you drop and at the same time, not losing out in a "eat-all-you-can-buffet", just dun stop eating.
Just, keep eating, don't stop chewing, this and that, left right bottom top chew chew chew.

Seriously, it worked.

I like this.
yummy!

my entries are getting super random. bahhhs.

STRESS sia. STRESS. EXAMS AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH DAMNNNNITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTt

11:54:00 PM let 'em go.

i'm still feeling so "heated" up despite the pouring rain.
THIS IS BAD.

Just saw the neighbour walking out with this green umbrella which barely seems to cover him. And the poor huge guitar he carried on his back.
I've been living in this house for like almost 15 years, and i've never spoken once to the neighbour just like 20 steps away my doorstep.

I don't even know their ~~NAME~~ SURNAME. hahhahas.

i'm so procrastinating.

3:52:00 PM let 'em go.

Thursday, February 16, 2006

i ran out of ideas to blog. FOR today.

i hate this, exams gonna start on next friday.

I've been yearning for starbucks quite awhile.

BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHSSSSS.

You know what, i want an custom-made espresso-coffee-maker in my future car.
I want the headlights to be rimmed with diamonds. WAHHAHAHAS.

ok. back to earth. ciaos.

11:46:00 PM let 'em go.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

I decided to have noodle. After lots of hesistation and considering, with uncles and dad "whinning" coz everyone's HUNGRY.

SOoo gloosssssy. mUahahhas.

I always thought that this was a joke, but at crystal jade, it wasn't.

"What did you ordered?"

"Fish congee"

"Oh, will be longer, coz have to catch fish"

4:18:00 PM let 'em go.

I met you again.
at the same place i saw you months ago.

when i least unexpected it.

Fate. no. it isn't.

u didn't recognise me.

prolly u did.

but why today.

Things happen,

and there'll always be a meaning behind it.

12:29:00 AM let 'em go.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

i never knew they bloomed.

12:30:00 AM let 'em go.

Monday, February 13, 2006

What's more heartbreaking to know when someone close to you, misplace the trust that you had on him?
How despicable it is to resort to such means and ways, to obtain your own interests.
I no longer respect you as before.
And i doubt i could ever face your beloved son.
I couldn't help but pity you, loathe the sight of you, i couldn't help but hope that one day, you'll get the retribution that you deserve. karma, it will.
Money is the root of all evil. i know now.

The overwhelming feeling of betrayal engulfs me, tears shed in vain, seeing everything taking place but not being able to salvage the grave situation before me, knowing everything and not being able my loved ones.

i really wish the person would just go away.
bring everyone that he took in, away.
i don't want to see all these loathesome people anymore.
i just want it to go back how it always used to be.
since young, since childhood, since decades before, how it used to be.
i just want it all back
i want time to tick backwards, i want to make that call.
i hate these people lurking around, i hate to see them even step inside,
they should just burn in hell.

2:26:00 PM let 'em go.

Sunday, February 12, 2006

since friday, i have no idea how i've been spending my days.
the only thing i could recalled was the long hours in front of the computer @ cousin's place.
Though the PC kept lagging, but it doesn't even bother me, coz what I'm most concerned was the folder "kiss" and the realplayer. Couz downloaded this drama serials, and since friday, YES. until last night, i've finished watching all 19 episodes of it. The last episode will be broadcasted at taiwan this sunday, OMGWTH. i can't wait. =_= HATE this, if i knew things will turn out this way, i'll never start watching it in the first place. bahhhs.

James blunt - So Long Jimmy

11:35:00 PM let 'em go.

Thursday, February 09, 2006

Black pebble on a Black brick.
i can't stop laughing..
HUAT AH!

hahahhas. ipod video. ahhahahas.
WAHAHHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHS.
i'm over the moon, venus, mars, and pluto.

8:57:00 PM let 'em go.

i feel like watching lemony snickets.

um. feelings can be so deceiving.
HAHs.

1:38:00 AM let 'em go.

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

OMG.

Last night, I'm supposed to finish up my micro article, and to send the OB presentation slides to max to ask him to help me print out and pass it in tmr. (FYI: on wednesdays, sammie here doesn't have school)

BUT. I FELL ASLEEP ON THE SOFA. AND NO one in this house is so KIND to wake me up. And i don't know how i end up sleeping in my room, sleepwalking or smth? seriously, i have no idea.

UNTIL, one hour ago, which is 6.20am. I woke up, then REALISING i have yet done any one of them. AND, micro's asssignment is due 12pm. PRINTER no ink! how bad can this get. -_-

Tens and hundreds of options running through my mind,

should i follow dad to his office, print my stuff, go to sch.
should i call up my cousin, drop by her hse to print, then go to sch.
should i go straight to sch, then do and print all my stuff there.
should i should i should i.

but alas, i smsed kelly asking her if she's printing today in school. VIOLA~ she replied saying that she is. bahhhhs.
you won't know how grateful i felt when she said that. =_= coz it saves me a grand totol of 2 hour bus ride.

7:48:00 AM let 'em go.

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

On sunday. Lots of things to do, pissed.
On monday. Volleyball competition was unexpectedly GOOD.
Daddy and I had indian ROjak for dinner, AGAIN. sigh. junk food.

I'm clearly aware of how unhygienic the prata place was, but, i don't know why, i'm always going back there.
i've seen cockroaches lurking on the sides of the walkways, ants all over the place, and the dirty utensils that they use. And being a half-considered cleanliness freak, i frequent there. how ironic.

Prolly it's the company that makes the trip worthwhile.

the simplest things in life could just be the best things that you can have.

12:28:00 PM let 'em go.

"Knowing is always better than wondering"

12:49:00 AM let 'em go.

Saturday, February 04, 2006

Looking up, she sees and felt the heat from the scorching sun, then checked the time, shit. she's late for her mahjong session already. Tucked her feet into any random slippers lying before her, she walks out of the gate. Speeding up her pace, the wind in her hair made her felt cooler, her eyes barely half-opened as the blazing sun lighting up every single object before her, the trees, the cars, the houses, the granite road beneath her. And the blaze was irritating her, she closed her eyes and let her legs carry her to the destination, walking this familiar route out was just like knowing how to breathe, easy as peanuts.

Then she felt something fluffy brushing across her legs, her sixth sense tells her it's a bug (look. that's a permanent paranoia symthom, she had enough of cockroaches already. Minutes ago, her maid found FIVE cockroaches in her dad's toilet.)
Shifting her gaze below her, she prayed that it's not some buggy thing that touched her. surprise surprise. It's a cute lil puppy~

Her heart skipped a beat, bent down to give a friendly pat on the cute lil furball.
The dog ran away as soon as the hand had contact, she laughed at how it ran with its short hind legs . She definitely am not discriminating shortness, just it's really purely lovable.
She was holding onto her handphone, what a moment.
Captured it.

Without a tag, she thought of bringing it home. But the idea was soon brushed off just as soon as it got thought of, daddy will nag at her, mum will cry for help, maid will scream at its dirtiness.
The dog walked her out quite a distance, but it suddenly stopped in front of a house, guess that's where it stays. =]

That furball made her day.
Something simple, but it just breaks the old boring route walking out alone.

1:13:00 PM let 'em go.

*smiles*

hahhahas.

i can't stop smiling to myself. damn funny. LOL.

12:49:00 AM let 'em go.

Thursday, February 02, 2006

NP open house.
I think i only caught one performace, by chance though, coz all of us saw the milo truck and we wanted to get some. But in the end, we watched the performance but forgone the oh-so-tempting milo. hahas. SHY. For once, I didn't felt like leaving the atrium, the music was great unlike the usual days.

Differenciating ngee ann polytechnic students from the secondary students who came for Open house was an easy task. I don't know why, but it's just the look on their faces which really tells it all.

Hm.. thinking back, I did came for NP's Open house last year too. How times flies huh. um. I could still remember I got this really cheapo pen, and some notebook in the goodie bag. Of course, a magazine. definitely the typical Lime or Teenage.
Man, I think i could list out what exactly happened on last year's Open house. So.. these are what i've been storing in the quite-limited-memory-space brain of mine. It would be splendid if it applies the same on my studies.

Dream on sam. bahhs.

And there's this thing which is getting on my nerves already.
stop bugging, and asking the same questions all over and over again.
Coz the answer will always be the same.
I think this is like the one hundredth time that I'm repeating it.
And now, I had enough of all these crap.
It's aggravating to know that you still bear those juvenile thinking at that 'tender' age of yours. HAH.
Keep those shallow comments to yourself.
What you can only say I think would be just those few childish statements.
YOU all go say whatever YOU want.
I wont give a hoot anyway.
cheers.

4:05:00 PM let 'em go.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

I want to live my life
The way you said I would
With courage as my light
Fighting for what's right
Like you made me believe I could

11:55:00 PM let 'em go.

i was at serangoon gardens just now, went to bank in my ang bao money.
Before the receipt was issued, i was like guessing how much will it be. since the last time i checked i am only left with like $2.32.
So total amount should be -> $( X + 2.32 ) BUT!
what was printed out on the receipt was -> $( X + 2.32) + $200

i wonder where it comes from.

apparently my dad knows nuts about my dbs savings acct. number.

hahhas.

but anyway,

thanks to that kind soul/ blur sotong whom probably transferred the money wrongly into my account. I think that's like even harder than winning lottery.

10:09:00 PM let 'em go.