to fly.

Friday, September 30, 2005

okay. Today was pretty happening.

I got a red head - U wont see a rambutan jojo. =]

It's required for the job, so today the training went like, briefing and educating us with all the basic knowledge we have to know about hair and hair dye products. Next was the MASS-hair dying session. I took some blahs plum colour - reddish purple . more to the reddish side though.

Look at me straight U won't see a difference, but its only under sunlight that the colour's obvious. That's what i wanted.

I miss the black-haired me. It's still the most natural. No fear! after half a year or so, i'll chop off those coloured parts and i'll be ME again.

Oh yea. btw. I paid nothing. Everything was done at Winston House, loreal's technical room or smth. Resemblances of a hairsalon. Belinda(new-friend-found) was my personal hairdresser! hahas. so nice of her.. She's with me all along, from the hair dye, to the rinse, to the drying up.
Thanks~

I was posted to Suntec at first, but did a swap to Northpoint instead. I got A freaking straight bus there, and NO MORE great wall of singapore(city-link mall) that i have to cross. I'm so fortunate~~ ahhh~ But the thing is, I HATE TIBS . anyway. i still have many alternatives =]

MY working schedule: Please drop by.

Thursdays - Sundays : 12pm - 8pm
Break: Any hour btwn 2-4pm.

DROP BY kkks~

Next. Part 2. Went down to expo - just helping out couz and his friend.

Part 3: East Coast.

While i was on the way back from East Coast, i took bus 135. First time taking it though.
Passed by places like the crematory, orphanage, casket smth smth... sat right through the whole journey. I thought i'll feel nauseous or smth, but nothing happened. Somehow, it didn't felt as long as I thought it could be, probably I was busy thinking about stuff.

I couldn't complain, i brought all these upon myself.

I'll still be strong.

I walked through the souless underpass alone.
I braved through the dark pavements as leaves from the big old angsana trees rustle, wind howling strongly, I was the only one walking at that stretch of pavement, felt so helpless yet I still carried on walking.
My only connection to people was being cut off, HP went flat.
My bank account in severe hunger.
I felt so helpless. but strangely, loneliness wasn't a factor.
Well,
I took the initiative. Asked and everything turned out fine.

What a day.

Overcomed all these, so what's next?

11:44:00 PM let 'em go.

Thursday, September 29, 2005

Emotions.
Humans.

I can't seem to articulate precisely the emotions that stirred up within me.
My mind had been festered by worries and more worries.
I'm nervous. very. tomorrow. Anticipating what will befall upon me. The sight, the thought fears me.

anyway,
i was waiting for my brother to finish his science quiz(imma his tutor!), and out of boredom, i took the bottle of straw hearts from the shelving unit. Poured out all the contents as wanted to count exactly how many straw hearts are there. And sad to say, i found out some things which I shouldn't as I go through them. A tinge of nauseousness filled me as i fumble through the pieces of fragmented plastic. Couldn't stand the sight of them, i dumped everything back to its origin.

I thought i would start reminising, waxing the nostalgic about the good old times, but it turned out this way. Things definitely turned out far from what i assumed it to be, WELL DONE!

9:30:00 PM let 'em go.

Seeing no point in blogging these days.

No topic.

Nothing.

Nothing inspirational.

Nothing motivating.

Nothing big. nor small.

Just me, myself and I.

I'll be preoccupied with work IF friday goes well.

Bless the girl.

I have sooo many questions swirling roundd n rounddd my almost-knock-out-brain.
I've always been under the care of the big papa's. But now i'm working outside, for real. The REAL thing. No more self-declared tea break, snack-times, little naps, walk-arounds, early departure, that's all gonna end man. Felt so uneasy facing a supervisor. I used to be my own supervisor then. Mum choked when i told her i went for the job interview today, HAH! She asked me why would I want work, I NEED MUNNEH MA?
Well, i would rather go through such job interviews at the tender age of 17 rather than having to face it only after finishing poly. All thanks to the ever-hungry bank account, and the laptop (forked out every cent i've saved. THE BIG FUGLY AND NO DESIGN piece of magnesium alloy n what?)

Happening so frequently, almost routine-like.

People disappoint me so oftenly. so easily.
And i know i did the same to others.
Vicious cycle aint it?

ceteria paribus.
Who's the Devil's advocate?

12:10:00 AM let 'em go.

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

All american rejects

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1:53:00 AM let 'em go.

Have you ever been wondering, is it that in recent years the number of epidemics and wars increased? Or is it that because people matured as years passes by, and we all are getting more aware of events that happened around us?

I'll receive a weekly magazine from TIME every tuesday.

Last tuesday, the front cover was, "Avian flu - DEATH THREAT" and today it was "Are we making HURRICANES worse?" And before these two issues, they covered on mad-cow diseases and floods. All the negativity.

Every week, I'll tear away the outer cover of the magazine, and what the front cover usually greets me will be either on wars, epidemics, or disasters etc. It gets into me, though i'm not personally involved in any of these issues, but knowing that the world isn't in such a peaceful state that I always thought it had been since young. I was so naive. Silly me. I could still remember reading an article on TIME and unknowingly, tears dropped. I didn't cry, just merely teared. Well, that just proves that the article was REALLy well-written and expressed.

And now, dengue fever on the rise. When will all these stop? I guess not isn't it. The feud on Iraq war seems incessant to me.

I hate reading all these articles. It's not boring, just, arghHhHhHhhh. **ROARS**

1:09:00 AM let 'em go.

Had a fruitful day out yesterday(monday)

I felt so grateful that i'm finally home after 9 hours of walking, both of my legs felt so sore that i thought "this is it, they're going"

i came home not empty-handed. *smiles*

My brother saw me depositing money into my account on sunday afternoon. And when I came back on monday night, he looked at my latest transaction slip.

He went : " OMG WTF. NOT AGAIN???? "

I hate myself now.

Two days, i haven't been touching the laptop.
So close, yet the feeling is so unfamiliar, strange. Aptly weird.
Blogging doesn't seem like how it used to be like already.
Man. i'm having this "pms" like mood swings again. shit.

Feel so uselesss at home, i'm going for that job thingy tmr, opposite M-hotel. However, the thought of going there for the job orientation turns me off, I have no idea what kind of company is that, the lady told me, "we're a trading company". -__- wth. Anyway, i'm still going, just wondering what are they up to.

We'll see.

12:37:00 AM let 'em go.

Sunday, September 25, 2005

Jojo just gave me this URL just now
http://museum-of-twits.blogspot.com/

Went and checked out most of their entries.

Well - First impression - damn funny. hilarious. What they're discussing about seems to be really true.

Upon reading on his/her/their entries - I felt that for me, well... I seem to be laughing at someone elses' misery. These twits-busters, they searched for those so called 'twits' from either friendster or blogspot.com, uploaded their photos onto their own blogsite, criticised and tada~ Man, this morning I was just blogging about these matters. And now. again. i'm kinda naggy. but well.. I just have to say this. Even though those 'twits' are doing things that may seem to piss someone off, but still, they don't deserve to be publicised this way. I would really wish to see how gorgeous this "Mr Prings" is like, *curious*curious*

1:55:00 AM let 'em go.

Saturday, September 24, 2005

**omg. i just thought that i saaw the clouds on my blog moved!** *slaps myself* k.

I came across this blog from msn space, its "ramblings of the mad professor". Nothing inspirational, just pretty factual. And i like it this way.

One of his entry talks about people who commented on his blog, personal attacks displayed. If you don't like what I'm writing on my blog, move on then. Since you hate what i write on my blog, why bother visiting it again? hm. The worst was, some of the critics point out spelling errors and sentence structure mistakes, what a joke. Blogging isn't a display of your flare in English, its just writing what you like, then the rest will be up to the reader to decide.

Sigh. blogging. Sometimes I ask myself why i do that. I could only think of a reason for doing so - i have to much spare time on hand. *smiles*

I'm in the office now/ kinda bored though. Another half an hour and i'm off for tuition @ clara's. I just realised that she's the only source of income for me. bahhhs....

ciaos.

9:47:00 AM let 'em go.

Friday, September 23, 2005

She's reading - Stephen King's : The Drawing of The Three

5pm - My butt will soon become part of the sofa if I don't do anything bout it.

Felt really bored, stood up and went straight back into my room. I was a little tempted to hit the bed and stop thinking about anything anymore. But no, i'm running behind schedule - jogging.

Opened the door and for once today, I saw sunlight shining above me.

paced myself well and i finished running the route that i've planned, no rests or pitstops in between, just running running running. The route that i marked out was from my house, to the condo, then out to the mainroad, turned left into the smaller routes, up the steep slope, passing lots of beautiful houses along the way, down the crazy slope (passing kimmy's hse), around the park then back home. - its hard to imagine how far i ran, but its not short! -

I've discovered new places today, and i have the new itinerary in my mind.

I was jogging on the main road and there's this little furry thing running towards me, oh yes its a DOG. I have nothing against them, rather, i adore dogs very much. But this time, it seems to be coming straight at me.

Rule No.1 - Do not panic or run when doggies attack.

I stopped immediately and the dog came sniffing me all over, uhuh uhuh. I was trying to avoid his wet little nose from touching my thigh, so... I hopped around the pavement and was forced out onto the main road. Then, there was this BMW passing by, and the driver did something really mean, HE HE HE... HE.. LAUGHED at ME! He was wearing a pair of shades, prolly in his mid-twenties or early thirties(if he didn't had botox injected). Anyway, it was a good thing that he came by, the dog started running after the car. Phew* I thought I shaked it off once and for all but NO! The doggie couldn't catch up with the car(duh) and gave up chasing it, therefore turning back for more jy-sniffing!

Drats. All this disrupted my pace. I escaped ultimately.

Next was this little boy, probably still in primary school, we crossed paths and he said "Doggies like body sweat, be careful~" I was sweating profusely. Followed by some small talk, like where i lived and so on. How nice, i made new friends! He's very well spoken, i could say that he must be from a well-to-do family. He initiated the conversation! Wow. kids these days are pretty out-spoken isn't it?

I felt revitalised after a run~ It's not about losing weight or anything, coz i don't think i will, i started munching on junkies the minute i'm back home.

Accomplishing something makes me feeel gooood. And now, all I want to do now is to finish reading Stephen King's book.

See yas~ ciaos.

9:13:00 PM let 'em go.

When i first stepped out of the house today, I told myself "I'll be having a HELL lot of fun later on" As i was strolling to the LRT station, just thought that it's the perfect weather for a nice tan. The weather's not scorching hot, I wont need sunblock, and it's rather windy too~ wheeee

I was running late due to my physical conditions, couldn't help it. Jieying sincerely apologises for her lateness. *sorry* =
Walked out of HarbourFront mrt station. Hm, something that I least expected, happened. Yes, rain. It rained. From drizzles to lightining n thunders, then strong winds and a stormy sky. I met up with the rest of the girls and all of us shard the same sentiments. And to make things worse, there were cold gusts of wind blowing, btw, we were all in beach wear - spag and shorts. I made do with what i have, took out the pathetic-looking (15x15cm) FACE-towel to keep myself warm. I have no idea how i did that, but, yea, I managed it well. Don't ask me how! I DON'T KNOW! HAHHAS

Boarded the bus and headed for siloso beach - first stop.

Still, it was raining quite heavily then.

Before we could find a decent shelter, the process seems to be like some "Tekong-obstacle-course" Dodging flooded areas, here and there. Shall not go into further details on the trip. In short, we din have our tan, saved on sunblock lotion**, had lots of fun, took lots of pictures, got to know strangers during the trip(nice), kinda know ABIT bit more about Sentosa, we'll come again!!

Many might think that what's fun to do when its raining at Sentosa. It's not the sunny kind of fun that usually u peeps enjoy - the tan - the games - the hunks - the babes - sun >>>

Rainy day @ Sentosa. running in the rain - the cold gusts of wind - sharing little towels - eating mash potatoes and feeling nice and warm - taking more pictures - the seawater actually felt warm, coz the air was really cold - funny feeling after ant bites - memories are still written and remembered dearly.

=]

a different experience. definitely.

12:30:00 AM let 'em go.

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

I think i have some undiagnosed health problem. Sometimes i'll feel jittery all of a sudden, irregular heartbeats, shaky hands, dizzy spells, slight tightness in the chest. A trip to the doctor will be much advised, but the thing is, having a body checkup will mean blood tests etc, and I fear the sight of needles. =_-

ANYWAY. hm. My daddy ps-ed me today, promised to bring me out but kept me waiting for him at home. Called him at 4pm when he's supposed to come at 2pm, "are you still coming?" , "No.." diaoz** Felt so cheated.

At least i still got jojo~ Supposedly, we wanted to finish up eOm. Unfortunately, when two chatterboxes meet, its no work done and more girl talk. But i "da-bao" all the homework home~ hahas. gotta start on it now~ ciaos~**

11:03:00 PM let 'em go.

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Dad and I were debating on some silly issues regarding the number of notes accepted by a cash deposit machine, yada yadas... and at some point, I looked out the windscreen, and saw something took my breath away.

Lightning. It's simply stunning, white luminuous strikes across the stormy sky, flashes of lightning one after another. B.e.a.u.tiful. I have a perfectly clear view of it, lightning against the dark blue sky. I wish i could capture that moment.

Both of us said nothing at the moment, even after, nothing but silence could be heard, we just kept quiet all the way back home.

Anyway, I was talking over the phone with Danny just now. And i promise to blog about "Moon" Here it is. Few days back, we've just celebrated mid-autumn festival. Supposedly, the moon should be shining brightly to its fullest. What about after "Ba yue Shi wu" ?

Jy said : The moon gets smaller and smaller lar!
Danny: The moon disappears and appear once again when the next full moon arrives.

After much thorough verifications with my very-reliable external aka internal sources, my hypothesis is proven correct! I don't know actually, but i think mine is the more-logical side of view. hahs. well, its just da moon.

Nites moon, stars, pppl~ ciaos.

11:29:00 PM let 'em go.

Sorrow and Happiness.

Everyone embraces happiness, sometimes, I would much prefer the bittersweet sadness of life. I ask myself this question, "What's the happiest moment I've had in my life"
I knew I had plenty. But I just couldn't name any at that time. Unlike sorrow, sadness or misery, it triggers me every now and then. Be it the scolding or harsh words people used on me, or little gestures that made me felt upset about, I could clearly name it out, one by one. Emotions like such filled me almost immediately the moment I recall the past, or the hurt. Call me petty for not letting go of such lil things in life, I don't bother anymore. I've seen people, met them, experience quite a lot of shit out of them, in a way, it was an "enriching" experience. When you know how cruel reality could be, with all the backstabbing, and scheming plots, as things go wrong someday, wont really be that bad aint it? "Dong de kan kai yi dian"
Hm. You must be thinking that i'm rather contradicting. its between relationships and reality(work/sch). Don't think anyone will understand what i've just said, well, be it then.

At work/sch - When doing projects/assignments with people, you'll clearly see who are the slackers, the NATOs (no action talk only), the biggest bastard/biatch, the bragger, the silent worker, the whinner, the silent slacker, the leader, the followers... etc. What we all need, is time to prove everything.

Relationships - I have no comments. Just don't wish to get involved for the time being. TIRED.

I've always been pondering, why can't I have it the other way round? Letting go of the hurtful past, and cherish happiness before, now or then. I don't know if all of us feel the same way as I do, but that's me.

I always thought that I've buried the past behind me.

No, I just merely covered it with lies. And more lies.

Sometimes I laugh at myself, for being so silly again. I'll just live on with this, until, maybe...maybe... one day, I'll get over it once and for all.

How fascinating, my mood totally changed within an hour. at 1am , i was blogging something rather cheery, now, this. What's happening/////////

2:41:00 AM let 'em go.

yeap yeap.

New layout.

And redesigning eveything just took me less than five hours in front of the toopiad laptop.

I'm just too free huh.

Desperately in need of a job soon, or gimme something constructive to accomplish, get smth done at least. sigh.

The result of slacking - idling - rotting = one box of moonckae

I finished the whole box of mooncakes today, myself, in front of the tv, YEAP! Jy's getting better.

Just thought that I should say this.

Jojoba: 9 more days girl~! JIAYOU! Wo yong yuan zhi chi ni!! **LEEHOM** lols. **century EGG** **young TREE**!!

Cheryl: Girl ah girl.. sit down and study. Don't keep walking around the house just after reading a page of ur lec notes k? Concentrate! *winks*

Nern Pok: u said u're busy these days? Hm.. been long since I last chatted with you on msn ler. hope you're doing fine. Although u passed physics and Danny failed..... *grins* hm.. cannot be complacent wor~ don't game so much(if you still are) ADD OIL!~~ u're not fat. hahas.

Danny: Ok. i know i always tease u. *sorry* but I know you have a big "DU LIANG" to forgive me right? heez. heard that you have a gf?!?!?!?!?!?!? NV TELL ME? hao lor. Danny, used to be top in Amaths (4i) , so, must be consistent wor. JIAYOU!

Amos: woots. famous amos cookie! lalalas. Don't be influence by danny! beware! hahas. Study hard for promos k? **jiayoujiayoujiayou**

AH MONG AH MONG MONG: I heard from cheryl you are among the Top 100? ***SMILES*** so proud of UU!! Must top in econs k? Though i'm not there to accompany you during lectures, but u can study my share yea? hees* All A's for mong mong ~~

RongJun: I've always feel that you are really smart ya knoe? Must score for promos K~!! Stop slacking! GogoGo!

Kimmy Neutron aka my-stone-throw-away-neighbour: woots. Exams coming soon ya? Don't worry. Study smart, not study hard(like those nerds in ur class) Pia nx sem too!!

Kenneth: Since kimmy's having exams, same goes to u right, kenni wonka? (kinda sounds like candy wonka)~ hahas. anyway, All the best dude! thanks for the ever-ready-supply of mp3s.

Benny: O's! O's! O's! O's! O's! O's! O's!

I don't even think the people that i've mentioned will read get to read this. (nvm, its the thought that counts)

Better finish your PROMOS/EXAMS quickly k !!!!!
I want MahJONG SOON! AND steamboat!!! AND more bridge SESSIONS!!!

i think this is the hundredth time i'm mentioning this.

1:06:00 AM let 'em go.

Sunday, September 18, 2005

my entries are getting crappier and lamer .

shucks**

hate this.

but.

talking bout men, women , love. will bore me out in no time .

laughing with jojo still suits me better.

hais.

no link again?

girl! i got something dedicated to u!

promise k? Watch potter's preview tgt!

1:21:00 AM let 'em go.

Saturday, September 17, 2005

What's fun to do in a boring afternoon?

Get a bunch of friends.

Plan for a picnic.

Go to the supermarket.

Grab ur stuff.

And we'll meet a the chocolates section.

I'll lay the mat.

And we'll all sit down.

And DIG IN.

how nice.

"Hey ben, could you pass me the maple syrup behind you? Yea, yea , that , thanks dude."

"Hey, could you walk down to the other section and get me some hm.. tissue paper or smth?"

"I need more water!"

"CHEESE!"

man. that'll be a great picnic indeed. You won't miss out any food right?

*winks*

inspired by "aiya!"

3:49:00 PM let 'em go.

I'm A MIX BLOOD. WHY? izzit?

Read below and you'll know.

In the car -

Everything was originally in chinese.

Dad: So you going on sunday? Chinese Garden?

Me: Yea, i'm so free now. sure

Dad: What about your brothers?

Me:Er.... go together ?

Dad:You think they will be scared?

Me:*absurb statement* HUH?

Dad:There got dinosaurs mah. (FYI: Those were LANTERN made dinosaurs -___-)

Me:**i still don't quite get what he mean** HUH???

Dad:Last time they watch "The lost world", your brothers scared what?

Me:THAT'S LIKE HOW MANY ZILLION LIGHTYEARS ALREADY!!

Dad: *smiled slightly* correct mah

Me: They were like primary school kids that time. -___- *disbelief*

Dad n me: HAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHHAHHAHAHAHHAHAS

the above had nothing to do with me being a mix - blood. LOLS.

kk. here goes.

sometimes, he's just so naive. and. cute. and yeah, THE BIG PENGUIN aka PEEG aka COW aka BEAR.

penguin? He does this penguin walk sometimes.

peeg? He snores like one.

cow? He's born in the year of the cow. And have similar character triats.

Bear? He's kinda fat and bearish.

penguin - peeg - cow - bear? He's MY FATHER!

and that makes me a MIX-BLOOD. WOOHOO. *****hops around******

k. i'm nuts. gtg. ciaos.

12:16:00 AM let 'em go.

Friday, September 16, 2005

Coldplay - Fix You

I thought i clicked "save as draft".

Ok. i didn't.

Not gonna retype already, so lazy.

bahhhhsss

Day 1 - woke up late - jogging gone (tmr shall be it)

I just just staring at the roadside while waiting at the bus stop, and this sudden dizzy spell hit me, the weather's pretty bad these days, SCORCHING HOT.

Had to give tuition today, its hard money sometimes, Clara - the kid will always be up to some mischief. Oh well, i endured it well and manged it properly. BANG* more homework!

I finally got my long-awaited Tau Sah Piah~ been craving for them since exams. don't really know how to get there by bus or taxi or cab. hm.

So here we go. Clementi -> balestier

Dashing across the road, into the shabby looking corner coffeeshop, then to the back of the shop, where all the heavenly tau sah piahs were born - the kitchen ! **yummy**

How sad, the first sentence that greeted me was "Xiao Jie , mei you le!"

******DANGG******

*sobs* i came all the way for these!

when i was walking out of the shop,

The ladyboss called me back, asking how much i want.

FLASHING my widest smile, "One box sweet, one box salty~!"

hm. and. yar. I WAITED. dad waited. waited. waited.

5.00 -> 5.30. hm..
finally got it. Pipin' hot, fresh ones! right from da oven... wheee~~~

I think till now, i finished almost 10 pieces. hahhahas

And it'll be MOONCAKES tmr.

And jogging.

And more random drawings.

i'm a poor girl now. so no shopping this week~

11:32:00 PM let 'em go.

Thursday, September 15, 2005

Undone - Lifehouse

i feel so worn out now.

poly exams are kinda easy to get by with, unlike jc's physics/chem/econs/cmaths/fmaths/biology.

I'm still fortunate. =]

Ok. Since after the bmgt exams, "Basics of Control", "Planning Strategies", "Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs", "Ohio state model", "Managerial Roles" and ... etc. etc. keeps poping up into my mind whenever i think of smth.

Therefore! Putting all these rubbish, non-sensical knowledge into GOOD use, I shall plannnnn for my holidays coz, PLANNING reduces uncertainty by anticipating change. - this entry is damn educational.

Alrights.

Steps to planning ->

1. Set goals/targets

I'll start jogging. Tomorrow onwards (shall defined it as Day 1), I'll run 2 rounds of Mugliston Park. Then, increased another round every subsequent days. My ultimate target? Fifteen rounds. =] I think that's just 2-3km. ANYWAY. hahas
I'll fix my brother - AS IN his studies. I do perform miracles sometimes. Especially on such brats and lazy bums. D7 -> B3 and ABOVE
Gonna get my pay - and that's nx wed probably - i'll pay off my debts - buy some new tops or smth. AND GET THAT EARRING i just saw at orchard with jojo.
I'll constantly remind JOJO to study
I'll call benji soon
I promised to treat Jojo after i got my pay
I promised Ted a supper treat
I promised to buy my lil p2 tution kid some presents if she done well for exams (that's like in another mth's time but well anyway)
Make a trip back to IJC
I want to meet mong, rj, danny, amos, nern pok, cheryl - SR!
AND FINALLY when i reached the ultimate target of fifteen rounds Mugliston Park, I'll go for 1 hr endurance run~ lalalas.
I want to re-design my blog again (MAYBE)
I WANT TO EARN MY OWN MONEY - AND SPENT IT THE WAY I WANT.

on my own. i'll live independently. There's no need for another partner for the time being, i'm alright on my own now. Although its kinda sad eating strawberries alone, but I can always share it with a friend or my brudders next door.

Friends are still the most important, significant ones that truly affects me.

I'm so bad at committing into a relationship.

hahas.

No sms replies. No calls. No msn replies.

gotcha. That's me.

11:38:00 PM let 'em go.

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

um.. new bground.

And aww...

I wish i lived there. hahas.

5:02:00 PM let 'em go.

here we go. The last lap of da rat race. Macroeconomics paper tomorrow.

I messed up POA, its really heart-wrenching to realise how many mistakes, or shud i say, BLUNDERS. Out of three question, only one - bank reconciliation. I got it right. Da rest? here and there i'll gain marks and it'll make up D or C probably.

Just ended the call with jojo.

It's kinda spoooky, i just tagged at her blog, *click* and then the phone starts ringing. **shrugs**

hahas. kinda cool.

Only best friends have this kind of um.... *SPECIAL connection*

awww....

My appetite's growing each day.

After lunch, i made myself two sandwiches - lots of cheese and ham

And now i'm munching on titbits.

And woots. two more hours to dinner!

And there'll be SUPPEr!

and MORNING will rise.

Macroeconomics will come.

And it'll end.

THEN, JIEYING WILL BE FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

4:41:00 PM let 'em go.

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

SHIT. oh. ****.

urgh.

I JUST DID the DUMBEST THING.

sigh.

12:42:00 AM let 'em go.

Saturday, September 10, 2005

#261 post.

i love the screenshot.

Anyway... hais.

i feel like i'm hanging in mid-air, like what my couz used to say, "welcome to da guessing game"

cheers.

bahhhs.i'm bored.

something's upsetting me big time.

studies are seriously neglected.

oh god. HELP ME.

oh. i'm recalling things again. mr wee : "you go pray to all the gods maybe got help ar, MAYBE"

maybe.

hmM.

AW. i miss hichews. hahas. da candy man. U're DA MAN! hahas

monday's the big paper - wish me luck - **cross fingers**

[ gave myself a strawberry treat / wheeee ]

11:01:00 PM let 'em go.

i'm slacking big time . BIG time.

currently i'm studying in some random room in dad's office.

And since 1pm , i sat here doing nothing.

And it's all about Surfing net, taking NAPs, munching on popcorn chicken.

Dad wasn't in a really good mood today. Wanted to study with a friend, but well. The emperor said NO and was rather pissed. so, i'll just have to obey.

And i hate this. studying alone is BORING - feeling damn complacent now.

I hate bmgt!!!

actually i have a really good study environment in front of me.

But the heart and mood aint there. What a pity. Have an urge to call up ppl to chat with.
It's so me and my talkative self. Jojo~ Ni zai na li? hahas.

okay. i'll end here. back to lala-land. =]

3:03:00 PM let 'em go.

craig david - unbelievable - don't love you no more - love em'

hais.

my right arm aches.

every word i typed.

The tinge of numbness still lingers.

12:09:00 AM let 'em go.

Thursday, September 08, 2005

**flash an evil grin**

i did something undesirable with joanna.

**heh heh**

trespassers will be prosecuted. lols

alrights.

CRASHED nyjc today.

AND - something - something - that - i did with jojo -

it's so undesirable. LOLS

its thrilling, exciting, heart-pumping excitment.
And after we did it, we're like. COOL!

"Hey? want to do it again?" i remember hearing that from joanna.

huh huh. notti notti. LOLS

okay.

till now, the content seems kinda porno.

k.

the fact -

we studied till really late today.

left i-space and went to the parade square to lie down.... enjoying the marvellous nightview. =]

And it's getting really late. gate closes at 8pm.

jojo checks her watch - 745 .

eh? how come nv make announcement?

we continued chatting. and she felt that something was amiss.

WELL. hm. yea. we're like saying what if the gates are closed and we hafta stay here for the night, that'll be super cool .

AND YEA. WE're locked inside the school.

we had no choice but to conquer the legendary nyjc's main gate. (exaggerating, but i felt like this)

My heart's racing. ok. this'll be like what i used to do also, i climb my house gates so often too? NO KICK RIGHT?

I think its almost 2.5 metres or smth, its SUPER high.

Step by step, i climbed higher.
I stopped, just like sitting on the top of the gate, looked down towards joanna, looking uncertain.

told myself that its either now or never!! across the road there's this guy waiting for the green man. **embarrassed**

Ever seen GIRLS climbing school gates?

HAH! U MISSED THAT.

omg. wo zai zhi shuang. hahhas..

Yea. of coz i managed to climb over the gates.

Hey! i'm tall. and jojo's proven not to be as short TOO~

when we're both on solid ground. we picked up our bags as quickly as possible, and left the embarrassing scene immediately.

only after minutes later.

We realised that what we just did was like - OMG SO FUN! hahas.

"hey! wan to climb back again?" jojo asked - we're like 10 metres away liao.

I stopped. Thought. I ALMOST said "OH OKIE!!!!"

but. hahas. "nahs!"

Althought its a tiring day of studying and beowing of "M&M" chocolate. It ended well. hahas.

LOVEmuahJOJO.

10:19:00 PM let 'em go.

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

shhhuh.

I'm mourning for my lost rings.

sob**

4:46:00 PM let 'em go.

i miss those days. even though its short - just a two-day event at marina country club.

Whenever i browse through the pictures that i've taken there, i really really missed the place loads.

I feel so emotional being there.

I love the sea.

The sunsets.

The company. (with my couz)

See the blue chain?

we sat on it, gaze out afar to the blue waters and green trees, fluffy clouds...

talked. chatted. slacked. laughed.teared.shouted.did comical stuff. spastic. hm.

am i dwelling on the past and not moving on as i should?

sometimes i ask myself, and yea, u know what i'm thinking now?

"OMGwth. nx monday exam gonna start and shit lar! i'm still blogging here. feeling sentimental for nothing. macro notes in front of me and STILL CAN blog? msn - exited . but this?! urgh."

okays. back to old sentimental jy.

finished assignment. and now i'm home. later gonna meet jojo, cheryl and siqi.

been long since we last met.

okok. better get started with macroeconomics.

or else i'm officially a dead duck~

4:36:00 PM let 'em go.

4:08:00 PM let 'em go.

Monday, September 05, 2005

My sixth sense, i could only described it as, incredibly accurate.

based on previous experiences - i hit it all right on spot.

This time.

I'mconfused.

I'm afraid that things might go terribly wrong.

Fear.

of . being disappointed once again.

What am I supposed to do.

I met up with baos n desmond after bca test.

movies - one more chance - its hilarious . i truly recommend it.

straight after movies, bao went fer her proj meeting. And i met up with benji for coffee.

Actually its starbucks. but we kinda missed Cartel.

Used to study at gardens' Cartel. And we're always having the same old WAFFLES. we tried all already. so decided to have just ice coffee instead. BUDGet BUDGET!

we sat there from 4 to around 630 i guess. Shared all weals n woes.

i guess. nx year. i might not have many chances to meet up with friends that often anymore. A's and all... and me. yr 2. it'll be even more hectic.

I want A CLASS CHALET SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND MORE MAHJONG SESSIONSS! urgh.

when will the time come .

11:15:00 PM let 'em go.

Sunday, September 04, 2005

Ohmygosh!

I met up with jojo yesterday.

Destination - Changi Airport
Purpose - Pure Girltalk
Result ->>>>>>>>>> 12 hour non-stop chat. with often outbursts of laughter resounding the rather quiet airport.

Start - 11.20am (at Pasir Ris control station)
End - 11.20pm (the time we parted)

Continued later at around 12++am in the morning till 2am++.

WE'RE HORRIBLE!

Both of us agreed that we could only laugh so happily when we're with each other. THE LOLS.
No-image, couldn't care less bout how the onlookers will think about us, laughing at every single little thing, or in another words, laughing for no apparent reason. And its all so GENUINE laughters!

I'm so updated with neh neh, meh meh, rou rou, ding ding etc etc. hahas.. i have yet to discover ah bao's 'yue liang' hahahahs~

we ate like so damn full... go airport - spend all ur $$ on food.
Heavenly chocolates! lalalas.

And i've yet told her all about EVERYTHING! OMG. 12 hours aint enuff!
New stuff happened!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~!!~! hahhas.

We're meeting up again next week~

Place - NYJC.

i gotta check out that place.

Where the most beautiful things and scenerios happen at - fruit stall.

The very oftenly mentioned grand-stand.

Main gates.

Library!

i'm getting excited! hahahas

And look at the time now, 3.12 pm. I haven started on BCA!!!!!!

who cares. hahahas.. i really don't give a damn bout it now.

I was awoken by my couz's call from aust - 12pm. if she didn't call me, i think i'll still be sleeping now.

We talked bout lots of stuff.... did some long-distance tarot card readings for me. hahas.. its rather accurate ?

Like the cards really show a sequence of explanation for things . And without fail, these cards DO answers my questions. **shrugs**

I'm not used to such things last time, but i'm getting along fine though.

It's just a reference.

Another way to set your mind thinking. Looking matters at a different perspective.

It's definitely NOT satanic .

3:04:00 PM let 'em go.

what happened to you?

it's obvious you've changed something deep inside

you is probably to blame.

must be lonely up there

with your head up in the clouds

even though you got there

what does your conscience tell you now?

it's never the same on the way down

how does it feel when your feet finally hit the ground?

when all of your bridges aren't around

and the sandcastles you built are falling down

you had us all sitting right there in your hand

but you had to fall because that's how this life is

got your fingers burned by burning candles at both ends

now the table's turned and now your demons are you friends

so now i question what you're gonna do

now that everything's gone with you

you believe the shit you say is true

but everybody's on to you

life remembers everything you do

your karma has caught up with you

-Love is so blind that it feels right even when its wrong-

2:16:00 AM let 'em go.

Saturday, September 03, 2005

wheee~

gonna meet jojojojojojojojojo tmr~

at airport. hahhas

crazy us.

12:59:00 AM let 'em go.

Friday, September 02, 2005

aww.. it rained.

**smiles**

I just woke up and the first thing i heard was the pitter-patter of the raindrops falling...

i have this urge to grab an umbrella and start walking around the neighbourhood.

But a pity is that i have no1 to accompany meeeeeeeeeeeee......

Well. I guess i'll be staying indoors. hahas..

I'm feeling much better, the sneezes ceases and noseblock cleared.

I can very much taste food again.

Congrats JY!

*pouts*

I'm hungry now! hahas..

I wanna go take a look at kimmy's pups.

Must be adorable like how fat cutie was.

Gonna craft out a masterplan to abduct those cute tiny furballs!

***gone***

3:20:00 PM let 'em go.

i'm not being myself these days.

is it stress?

Or constant boredom that drove me into such a pathetic state?

i wish that tomorrow will be a stormy day, so i can just stay home and sit by the balcony. and do the thing i always do when it rains. (Don't imagine/assume/guess) k. period.

"How's poly life?" They asked.

I searched for an answer deep within me, nothing.

I haven't been living poly life to its fullest.
Projects are usually what occupies most of our time, we don't often hang around outside or go shopping like what I always do with the old clique back in mayflower. I understand perfectly why this happens.

we meet and know more people as days passes by.
therefore having numurous cliques of friends.
Each of them having their own significance in the heart.

Gatherings will be most oftenly organised during weekends. And so frequently such scenerios happen - two different cliques of friends asked me out fer dinner on the same day, quite same place, same time? Hate it when this happens, guess many out there feels the same way as i do?

Another thing is that.

When nobody calls, nobody calls.

Just felt as if i'm in a mrt station.

When the train arrives, we could see people flooding in and out of the station.
No trains? i could distinctively hear the clig-clogs from one's shoes/heels.

LIFE.

12:13:00 AM let 'em go.