to fly.

Wednesday, December 29, 2004

I'm back from another clz chalet again... My life's all filled with bbqs, bbqs and more bbqs. Wonder if the steamboat is still on . oh man... I can literally hear my mum and dad's screams at the back of my head . *shrugs*

There were only two single beds, no extra "pull-out" beds from the bottom compartment. So, most of us ended up sleeping on the red-tiled concrete floor with bedsheets laid on the floor, used as mats. Air-conditioning--> only provided upstairs. That's the situation on 2nd storey.
Well, as for the first storey, two thick blue mattress were provided=not enough space for every1 to sleep. I ended up sleeping on the stairs, and I promise that it'll be the first and last time i'm doing that.

I'm in for innova. No change, shall see bout what the hell this instituition gives me. Hope it won't waste my first three mths there. *cross fingers*

To my bestest pal : I'll hold it back and we'll get even with those morons one day. Be happy than expected, forget all the blues and rawk on our own life. =] cheers~

4:18:00 PM let 'em go.

Sunday, December 26, 2004

I love JANEL! hahas... my bez sista .
I had such great fun on christmas eve, just hope tat everyday is christmas, so i gotta see all my close friends. =]
Thanks nel for looking after me the whole night. Won't know what to do without you.
I think Kimmy is the only fully awake one that night, hahas..
The Nanny of the night. Looking out and taking care of all of us. Like pouring warm water, running in and out of the hse. Hope I could help back then, well, there will always be next time.
At hm.... around 7am . Its sleeepy time~ Janel went home with me, took a shower and there she goes into her dreammy wonderland. Woke up listening to nice songs, had a heart-to-heart talk while lying on the bed, coz we're just too lazy to get up. My BED RAWKS..hahahs.
We've made so much plans for the near future, hope everything will work out well too.

Cheryl and Siqi came over to my hse, actually planned to stayover but both of them were demanded back from their fathers. i had no choice but to hand them back. -__-"' hahas. Never mind, like wad i always say, THERE will always be next time.

Now, i'm looking forward to another chalet. hahas..

Humans live on most probably will be because of festive days like christmas, new year, valentine's day etc etc.
Looking forward in life, that's what we've been living for.

2:48:00 AM let 'em go.

Friday, December 24, 2004

I wasn't a free bird today afterall.
I was summoned back to the devil's lair tis morning.
Totally wreaked my schedule for the day.
Just hate it.
Anyway, of coz, i was late while meeting benji at Borders.
***my deepest apologies***
I really planned out well, two o'clock kant possibly go wrong.
And I've got PACHI~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
aHh... felt so.. hm.. wonderful.. He will be with me till the end of time. PROMISE! hahas... I had a cup of Iced chocolate with gelato at Olio. Nice place to talk and chill out, though the waiters are 'blind'.

At around six thirty, met up with my dear jojo at Wisma. Bought a top at Zara, quite satisfied.
Had a really nice heart-to-heart talk at the small lil' corner of Somerset's MRT station before heading back home.
Tis is the fourth time that i've been walking home alone at such an hr, eleven, nearing twelve. And my legs are killing me!

1:04:00 AM let 'em go.

Thursday, December 23, 2004

new skin, new look. thanks to jojo, is the alignment better now? Is the box in the middle? I kant really view properly, DAMN com i must say.
At least, my blog seems more well-organised. Thanks to my jojo. =] u will definitely deserved some credits yea.

23th Dec : The day when i'm set free from the avalanche of workload and stress.

I couldn't wake up on time this morning(usual news).
The bed is just too cosy and soft.
Hate it but love it too.
Met up with Cheryl at campus one, went to collect some documents before heading down to Serangoon Junior College for our appeal. *cross fingers* We will be going in. God gave me too much unhappiness since the beginning of december,
its time for celebration and joy.

I bought new shoes today. Its white, neat and simple. Unfortunately, only after hours of wearing it, it looked as though it had been worn fer a mth.
How sad. Coz i just too rough, and kept bumping on things, even ppl. Butter fingers too. My feet were so sore that i changed it back to my old butterfly sandles. Ahhh.. . I'm still happy that i bought it. Satisfaction. Muack.

Just now i had some 'counselling session' hahas.. not exactly that. but, sort of. From a friend. I'm feeling so much better now. =] Lighter, and looking forward to christmas eve even more.

1:50:00 AM let 'em go.

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

I felt sort of, rejuvenated since after the lonnnggg talk janel and I had at delifrance . ^.- [ the soul not the body ya]
Never felt so "filled" up since after prom. Talking bout the latest happenings around us, doing the usual catching up with each other, gossiping bout others too.. hm.. and we really went into deep talks like. yea, well. DEEP. Janel: "I was holding back while i told u bout tat pathetic nite"

Nevermind, I think the path that I took in life will always be the bumpy one. Really hoped that something pleasant welcomes me at the end of it.

yiIIpEee~ Christmas round the corner, and I've not send any1 christmas cards yet. Been busy everyday.. sigh. I need a really nice long break. LOOKING SO FORWARD TO CHRISTMAS EVE!!! gonna party, play, eat eat eat eat eat eat and perhaps, sleep if i'm really tired. hahas.. think i'll only do tat in the morning . Shouldn't waste the beautiful christmas nite. ****cross fingers**** hope its not cloudy, i wanna see stars~

1:07:00 AM let 'em go.

Sunday, December 19, 2004

the title is crappy, i'm currently listening to westlife's "aint that a kick in the head"
hMm...... jazzzy.

**change**

Switchfoot - "Dare you to move"

Okie. TODAY.
I am dying for the pet show on level 6. -doggie freak here-
The mascot we've hired came today, it was sucha great hit among kids. "I want snooopy~~" "Where is snoopy?" sigh...
kids are just so naive and adorable.
No worries. I'm so envious of them, always.

My couz and I went to take a look at the cakes at Prima Deli, it's our colleague's bday. Unknowingly, i left my phone there when i'm searching for the receipt which used to get the cake. Only after an hr, I then realised its missing. I'm such a dead duck. Ppl- > AUNT. mother side one. BLOODY FAGGOT. i hope i could just use a needle and string and sew her damn lips together. Yelling at my carelessness doesn't help at all, all she knows is complain and complain and more complains. Whereas, the uncles n aunts fr daddy side consoled me. No.9 uncle even asked me "Ni you mei you shi, you mei you ku..?" *smiles so sweetly at me* ar.. tat's warmth, TLC.~~ No wonder my brothers have such freaking bad attitudes, they're always wif HER since young. ***PRAISE AND THANK GOD***

1:20:00 AM let 'em go.

Friday, December 17, 2004

I'm elated. =]
This is the first time i bought such a xpensive gift for someone, its daddy. I thought i wouldn't even have the time to look for a present for him. Besides,
The exhibition at suntec literally drained all the energy out of me.
But i just couldn't giv him a packet of "Mei zhen xiang Ba Gua".
My couz and I went for a lil shopping during hm... early afternoon. I think. not really lil', we took our so-called 'break' for a few hrs actually.But we're just helping out, so, No guilty consciences~ whEe.
I thought of what to get fer him already, but, i just need time. time time. time to do it.he seriously needs a wallet. A decent credit card could just turn out to look like a washed-down, old, tattered and dirty-looking one. That old wallet, seriously needs to go.
There aint much shops selling Men's wallet. The only wad that i could think of would be "Xiao Nui" -> that's wad i call Braun Buffel. hahas.. I got him the latest one as it is unique and I really like the design too.
Met up with another couz of mine, went ta Harvey Norman to buy some electronics gadget , etc etc. Indulge on some ice cream along the way back, Gelato i think. IT'S FABulOus. get the yoggi. arRr.. heavenly. =] It's like, eat eat, eat, eat, and still eat. all the way.... in the exibition, went -rounding-, out of the hall, eat aagain.
Saw two full-grown huskys on level four. There're having a pet exhibition on lv 6, not really sure. but should be either lv 5 or 6. Wanted to give it a biggg hug, but, nahs. I'm nuts.

Ignores. more ignores . ignoRes.

11:50:00 PM let 'em go.

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

What happens today is today. Life still goes on.. The sun still comes up in the morning and dissappears into the serene blue sea in the evening.(crappy)
One will still have to eat, do whatever he or she is supposed to do. And.
If one day, perhaps, my loved ones left me, for good, i've realised that breaking down doesn't help. It's just another way of seeking pity from the fortunate ones.
So I shall Be Strong and survive on.
When u let lose of urself, that's when u'll lose the game
Things doesn't always go your way, the world doesn't owe u anything, be yourself, fight for it and not regret for not grabbing the opportunity and let it just slip away from u.
both of them were meant to be. But, no matter how hard she tried.... it all adds up to nothing.

what happened to you?
it's obvious you've changed something deep inside you is probably to blame.
must be lonely up there with your head up in the clouds
even though you got there what does your conscience tell you now?
it's never the same on the way down
how does it feel when your feet finally hit the ground?
when all of your bridges aren't around
and the sandcastles you built are falling down
you had us all sitting right there in your hand
but you had to fall because that's how this life is
got your fingers burned by burning candles at both ends
now the table's turned and now your demons are you freinds
so now i question what you're gonna do
now that everything's gone with you
you believe the shit you say is true
but everybody's on to you
life remembers everything you do
your karma has caught up with you

-Love is so blind that it feels right even when its wrong-

5:52:00 PM let 'em go.

I thought i could b free today, well, its juz a mirage. Accidents happen, the unexpected happens.. well.. i'm thoroughly sad today. sads.. benji.. lets have coffee.. evening? when r u free?

1:12:00 AM let 'em go.

Friday, December 10, 2004

hm... after so much of stoning since i came back from chalet. i've thought about millions and zillions of stuff.. i think i might take aeons to answer those qns, (i'm slow yea) and also get all the doubts cleared.. um.. wad are friends for in one's life?
Friends are the foundation that made up someone's life, so to speak. It's either they bring u happiness or pure misery. There are many catagories and classes of friends one will meet. 'hi-bye' friend, 'looks like to be best friends on the outside but not really on e inside' type of friend, 'i care for u but i don't really have the energy to bother' type, 'wad's wrong wif u.. wanna share?' type of friend, jokers, racists friends, true best friends, rather good friends, 'you are rich, so u r my friend' type, 'i wan u to fall, gonna screw u upside down' type. ar... etc etc.
Praise and thank god. I've not yet met the worst. But of coz i've met some tangled problems, the knot will always be released eventually. hope the worst doesn't come true though.
Communication is important between humans, if not, there won't be such a term called 'friends', all of us will then be individuals in this chaotic and hectic society. Juz a call, email or sms to a friend might just do the trick. I sometimes wonder, if i had already met U guys out there before i first get to know u. Fate must have brought us back together.
Like your first love, after a decade or two, both of u coincedentally saw each other in a cafe or a pub, chilling out. After being through bumpy rides in the circle of love, had a few falls and almost felt like giving up when that special special someone came forward and took your hand in his/hers. After so much that had happened, it links right back to the start. How comical and fasinating life could be.

1:12:00 PM let 'em go.

Thursday, December 09, 2004

benjamin~!!!!!!!!!!!!!! COMEEE BACKK NOW!!! I NEEEEDD UUU!!!!!!

9:51:00 PM let 'em go.

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

i'm exhausted. -_- .everything.

11:32:00 PM let 'em go.

okies. I'm back from my class chalet.. Though i had three days of fun. but i'm missing my bestest best friend already.. Wonder what he is doing in Osaka now, chionging puffer fish? hMm... *wonders wonders*
Janel n co. check in at around three. due to my "chores" tat i hafta complete, I'm late for the "opening ceremony" hahas... We went for pool and after dinner. wOohOo...~ Gambling time!~ yIipEee... Darn mahjong rental aunty, conned our money . anyway, shall treat it as we're doing charity for the society. yUpp..
Don't know why, but i didn't really win a game that night. Mahjong... wells.. we didn't start off with a huge sum of money so, don't really hafta take off pants and run. hahas.. from a hand full of chips, degrading to one fifty, seventy cents.. gone~! plus negative negative.. lols. **Muz be the evil aura of xiangjie.** I think i drank too much that nite, went around smiling at every1. I think i bite kimmy neutron, but didn't know the process was much like rape. hahas. Knocked on someone else's door, talked quite alot of crap too. hm.. but still, i aint drunk, juz feeling retarded and mentally slow only. Hm.. they thinking of going to sentosa on sunday. That's nice~~ What a fulfilling week eh.. ahahs.
BBQ day - didn't really start off well coz we're fretting bout where the hell we're going to eat. hahas.. end up in BK. good breakfast.. ate quite a large meal. hm.. after that, we went for some bowling sessions. Then back to the chalet.. had our fun on jenga. that's a blooddy nice game eh.. absolutely challenging. After that , it'll be time for the collection of Satays, thank goodness my dad didn't demand me back to the office. hate being a free labour.. sigh. I think we didn't have all the stuff that we need for BBQ, so its kinda chaotic at first. But all of us managed it and start off the first pit. The second pit didn't had much luck, coz the charcoals are wet. Luckily ivan was there to help.. den we have the "Ba gua" satay lols.. of all the bbq food that we had. i think that satay is the most successful of all.. hm.. firstly, its easy to bbq, easy to eat(unlike prawns or chicken wings) I didn't had much appetite on that night, sucha pity eh.. Mayb i'm juz tired, suffering from fatigue. hahas. after the bbq is the clearing and washing up part. Cleaning oily skewers is a really fun activity. hahas.. yea rite fun. hm.. The sink was almost filled to the brim but we managed to find the stopper and released it. After that ish bathinggg time`~~~ wHeEeee~ We went to the entrance toilets. Nel, han han n me. Three out of four sinks are filled with vomit. *yucks*. but the shower room is big and spacious enough. That's the most enjoying part. hahas... we took our own sweet time.. didn't hafta rush at all, unlike the first nite. By the time we finished taking our shower, its already hm.. past one am already. Kim, feb, me, nel and seng shared two beds. Though i'm already lying on the bed at around 2+, but i think i only managed to sleep at around.. three plus four? Got ppl watching soccer.. some snoring loudly, others talking. Nice combination . hahas. The way huai shi slept on the first nite is really pure erm. wanted to say cute but might sound really gay to him. So its .. adorabLEee!!`!~ hahas.. the big bearrr~~
okies.. gtg take moi dinnerrr~ ciaos.

6:35:00 PM let 'em go.

Friday, December 03, 2004

Benji~~ Going to osaka tmr ar..... take care and rest well tonites yea! Remember to get Pachi back k.. I love TAKO!!! hahahas... **huggies**
Bon voyage!!

Gonnamiss ya ar... so.. better bring back some presents for me!!! yIiipEee~~

11:43:00 AM let 'em go.

Thursday, December 02, 2004

i've been really really busy these days... quite 'happening' actually. hahas.. where shud i start eh.. okay.. probably friday yea... or is it sat? arh.. can't really remember clearly. its the day when i finally got my lovely dress~ Soke bao, nel, yy and I went shopping , in Suntec City. On our way there.. we saw some of our schoolmates, most probably doing e same thing as we're doing, preparing for the momentous day, Prom Nite. Such a coincedence huh... alrights, nvm. Then, I saw another schoolmate of mine. That's not it yet, I saw him the day before too, in Orchard's Paragon. -bewildered- lols... Then, he told us tat eugene and co. are upstairs too.. ar.. actually going for dinner together. hMm.. wells, i'm dead beat after walking non-stop for eight hours. so... i chose the bed over food. hahas.. actually I can't wait to show it to my lil' boyfriend~ whom is the one who sponsored me all e money... yIiipPpEee~ Hahahass... i'm always pleased wif the smile he gives , the expression filled with agony and pain, the fear, the anger. oOps... i sound like a psychopath. - back to e topic- i seemed to have second thoughts bout e dress since tat nite, since every1 demanded me to wear it and gave me not really pleasing comments. especially the one from my lil boyfriend, "YOU're FAT!!!" (well, he broke the taboo of the kabuba(idiot bugger named it) family, and he suffered miserably from the consequences.)
Sunday - I went to Orchard, aaaggaaiinn. shopping for accessories, easy task. Found a b-e-a-u-tiful butterfly necklace.. aw... nice earrings and a bracelet. =] [over da moooonnn~~ wHhHheeEee!]
Monday - The BIG DAY.
A damn chaotic day... still as confused and blurr as eva . I accidentally took the wrong turn to janel's hse... -____-''' Tis shall not happen again! Went over ta plan bout hairstyles and stuff.. in the end i'm juz too lazy to do anything. hahahhas... simple is still e best i think. simplicity rawks! No point being extravagant and exaggerating, i aint the queen. I'm glad tat my couz did a really good job wif e makeup, could be better coz we're rushing for time already. It only took us ten mins to settle everything.. hahhas.. fast eh? chop chop done~ sigh.. eventually, it didn't really last long, it worn off after the dinner.. coz i'm sweating like a pigggg. don't know why but i'm the only one perspiring in the room. Most probably I'm too excited. took loads of photos too~

-- to be continued. gotta go back ta work. ciaos!

4:24:00 PM let 'em go.