to fly.

Thursday, July 29, 2004

*indulging myself to the pipin' hot waffles (netella spread on top) daddy bought for me!~*

its raining heavily now. Heavy raindrops hitting against my window panes, cool weather~

hm...... nearly a mth to prelims, yea great. great... gReat

8:53:00 PM let 'em go.

Friday, July 23, 2004

Feeling really bored right now. decided to blog. well, things have been going pretty. hMm.. oKk these days. Celebrated Racial Harmony yesterday, it's nice seeing so many different designs and colourful costumes all at one go. Sort of like a mini-fashion show. People came in their own religious costumes or they swap with their fellow classmates, while some really enthusiastic ones, went to rent for costumes like kimonos, greece ones, etc. Nonetheless, our class showed utmost unity - no one wore. =] Firstly, most of us are big-time racists. =\ sad but, yes, we are~ Secondly, we're just lazy, no one really bother much bout tis Racial Harmony thingy~ Hmm.. however, if I have the time to look for one, i'll go for an indian traditional costume. I don't really fanies Malay costumes.. no prejudices, just don't like the design. The party was great~! Shud really have tis once a month or smth. Although its a clz party, no one really planned for it. I went to do e shopping of titbits, drinks etc. Um.. Only Janel and I did the packing up. Quite sad ar... When the bell rang, its like, everybody's gone? leaving all the rubbish lying all around. Nvm. that's Four Integrity. Lazy bums~

*new skin updated* I'm still lacking some stuff. Gonna update some other time.

11:49:00 PM let 'em go.

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

Today - chaotic. Lots of mixed feelings i had today. Well, probably coz i'm sick. Everyone seems to be ill, symptoms like flu, cough, dizziness etc. could be seen ard. I hate the feeling of being sick, though i dread to be sometimes coz it acts as an excuse to skip lessons. *grins* Feigning illness was once my forte. Lols. parents just gave in to me. Coz i have a rather pale complexion.. so yupP.. However, I couldn't afford to miss school these days, coz I only have ard... two months before I bid farewell to my beloved sch.. not really beloved. Just not prepared to part fr it, there will always b some feelings attached. The small corners or corridors where frens have fun together, sigHh*

1:15:00 AM let 'em go.

Sunday, July 18, 2004

i'm really down on luck these days. hm.. no.. months actually, not just days. well, just hafta obviate myself from unnecessary temptations, ar.. basically, stuff that requires luck, i'm definitely out. I think now, I should just keep to myself, save up for my overseas trip at the end of e yr, after o's. Ok, tat shall be my motivation.

spending money like.. like... *sigh*

And a bastard who cheats my money. sorry, correction, BASTARDS. I trust them and yet, wad the fcuk.
I spend my weekend playing mahjong over at my couz's hse = no work done. no revision done. been idling as usual. progress =>0% hate tis feeling. Once i'm home, i'll never start on anything. NEVER. That's pathetic. If tis carries on, I'm think i'll nv reach my targets. .. i'll just hafta keep my fingers crossed. Hope everything will turn out fine during my prelims, o's, etc.

11:47:00 PM let 'em go.

Friday, July 16, 2004

wAhhhah* I had loads of laughs today.~ weeeE~ My life-long-partner(er, nel, don't mind me self-claiming u) and me, did some crazzy stuff today. fun. hm.. probably only janel n me experienced it. We're really bored during recess, *wanders* around the 4d. Finally, settled down onto des ang's desk. Without any second thoughts, or rather, naturally, i grab a pencil and started scribbling words onto his maths wksheet.
*scribble*
'desmond ang, hi hao ma?' --> thought to myself. hm.... should i end here or wad. No way!
*scribble*
"lalala..."
Janel: "u put lalala sure ppl knows it is you already..."
Me: "really..?" -> thinking smth else to scribble..
*scribble*
' bahhhh....'
Janel: "bahh? .. bah bah black sheep.. haha.."
Me : "hAHhaHA! okokok!"
*feeling so excited, continued writing*
'bah bah black sheet have u any wool, yes sir(x2) three.. " hm.. lost. shit. both of us forgotten wad's the nx line.
Me: Oh yar! "three bags full.. one for ...desmond, one for marcus, one for ayub"
Janel: "hm... nono! one for ayub who lives down the lane!"
Me -> confused.
Janel -> repeats. rushing me along.
"quick quick!"
Me-> feeling really anxious, really pressed for time. I got tis feeling tat des coming back, nearing us step by step, about to open the backdoor and ruin the whole pt of the 'joke'? lols~
*ScribbLes ruShingly* finally ending the beautiful poem, we quickly got out of his place & went to the other side of the class. & suddenly his face *popped* from the backdoor!
*LaUghteR, giggles* from the both of us. eunice n mad tot wad happened to us. we couldnt explain. the feeling is indescribable. it's all that lame, it's not that funny, but all the excitement seems to overpour all the stress and troubles, making us laugh like crazy. HmM... if i could recall, this should b the first time i've seen janel being lame, crazy and incredibly funny. Janel~ U go gIrl!~ sistas forever!

10:15:00 PM let 'em go.

Thursday, July 15, 2004

took down [Jojo's - Leave] -> though its a great song, hafta change sometimes.. or i'll find my blog quite peevish..anyway.

Currently Featuring [Nickelback - Feeling way too damn good]

10:58:00 PM let 'em go.

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

i'm back.. MIA for 2days. monday turned out fine. Tuesday wasn't nice at all.. How careless can i get man. I forgotten my tie in the morning. cleanly forgotten bout it as a matter of fact. I wasn't like tat normally... hmm.. well.. smth's wrong. Not my day. During chem prac, tat wasn't anytime for lunch. Didn't bother bout e time that i'm supposed to report, ate lunch as usual wif the usual ppl. Juney wasn't happy at all, of coz, we're late. Kept us waiting outside for hm.. bout half an hr or so? probably more, i lost track of time. Had a few laughs with OM Tan while waiting... however, I felt the disgust i had for juney arose unknowingly while she kept us waiting outside for so long.

Ok.. after such a long wait. It's our turn, occupy the empty lab nx door. thinking that y my day turned out so bad n stuff... well.. it'll get nastier when i got inside. I'm reprimanded by juney becoz i didn't wear my goggles. I'm wearing specs and goggles? oh freak.. its a new regulation fr e ministry. friggin' uncomfortable.. i'm felt really lost and confused. Didn't concentrate what i'm doing. Had some mistakes here n there.

ok. shall end it here. gonna zZzz soon. ciaos~

12:28:00 AM let 'em go.

Sunday, July 11, 2004

I've just watched a really nice movie. on scv. hMm.. how amazing that just a lil' show can make me feel happy fer e rest of the day...looking really forward to all the forthcoming happenings in life. simplicity just makes life better, isn't it? Having small hopes for [some] things in life... might just bring[double] the joy?

Remedial lessons are such a nuisance. School -> still as busy as always. More remedials, more work, more studying n mugging, more more fun perhaps? I sort of , enjoyyy going for dnt lessons although I'm always on tenterhooks bout e far-fr-finished folio n artifact. I'm always having the same old thoughts bout wad i'm doing in there.. "will tis work?" , "wad will tis become of later?".. etc. feeling uneasy and yet enjoyable experience? er.. contradictive statement.. nvm.

Tat's all fer today. well.. gotta start on smth soon, hopefully?

1:06:00 AM let 'em go.

Saturday, July 10, 2004

Featuring: JoJo - Leave ( Get Out )

~Enjoy~

12:39:00 AM let 'em go.

Friday, July 09, 2004

Today turned out rather fine. =]T.G.I.F! --> INITIALLY. Nevertheless.... smth unexpected happened today which made me feel so disgusted, and so.. wtf. *ANTSY*. ok.. it goes like tis. Right after school, sh, yy, nel n me took a taxi to j8, well.. for lunch. (simply too lazy) And made it back 2 sch on time for ss workshop. Feeling reallyy thirsty after the 'long' trip back from bishan, of coz, I drink water to quench my thirst. My waterbottle was full at first and I finished almost everything. Just then, I saw two black 'specks' floating on the water. I thought my eyes were playing tricks on me. Took a closer look just to ensure that its nth. And I realised that it was actually something which i feared and loathe the most - ANTS! eEeuUu.. yucky. I couldn't imagine how many of them I've .. .. eRrreeE. i'm not picky or fussy wadever. It is just. simply. digusting. and. unhygenic. wad a lurid experience. yucks*

The rest of the day was utterly dissapointing. I'm quite distraught by what happened earlier, and began to exhibit serious sympthom of paranoia after I got home. Don't wish to eleborate on it, dreadful... despite the nicee lunch i had today.

11:46:00 PM let 'em go.

i've been sitting in front of the computer since eleven.. and its 1am now.. for the past two hrs. I did nothing but surf ard despite that i still have lots of hw left to finish by tonite? Muz b the supper I had earlier outside wif dad. Like father, like daughter. And also, I just found out that my dad's a racist. WowOwOw~ He claims that malays are stupid. hm... coz back in the old days, when malays sell satays,they only count the number of satay sticks left on the table, then collate the amt of money which the consumer has to pay. hm... kinda subjective eh? waddeverr.. just glad that racists still exist. So there'll be exciting 'live' shows being telecast every now and then. wOohoo~
*stop stop*
i ain't thinking straight already... gtg. tata. zZzzzZzzz

1:01:00 AM let 'em go.

Wednesday, July 07, 2004

Well well.. I'm back.. Sigh. I had my Chinese o'lvl oral examination yesterday. anxiety filled my insides while waiting at the side benches. It felt as if I'm going through some super duper scurry roller-coaster ride. Or as if i've just sucked a piece of lemon,swallowing it right down the throat and still
feel the sourness lingering in e oesophagus? oMg. tat sux. Hmm.. the whole process was quite okk...just the usual stammering upon some words. I wasn't really sure what the hell i'm talking but still, I managed to 'dig' my own way thru it. **phew**
The joy and sense of relief I felt when the teacher said "hao le, xie xie". I can consider that as one of the best moments I had in my entire life -stepping out of that dreadful place. **I'm glad that I'm a Quek not a Zhang etc.** I'm the fifth candidate. So.. i'll only hafta wait for ard... half an hr or so?
okie. I'm extremely busy tis week. Hope I can organise all my time wisely. Which I think I couldn't, arrghh.. sian..
Okie.. 3mins to 12am. tata. **gtg start studying for tmr's phy test**

11:28:00 PM let 'em go.

Sunday, July 04, 2004

did some minor changes.. the picture . i still haven't sort out the linking prob. Shall just let it be as it is. oh yar. I won't be blogging frequently in the future, coz i'll be quite bz with some stuff. I'm broke, I'm so lost now, Everything seems to be coming all at once now. how i wished there are 36hrs a day.

1:22:00 PM let 'em go.

Saturday, July 03, 2004

I'm back finally back after travelling around in circles.

I sat for my MT listening compare early morning. I reached school exactly at 7.30, thinking tat the exam will probably starts at ard 8am? but well... ignorant me. And I thought it will be better if I do smth constructive like... eat? Went to the food centre behind the sch with joanna.
As for the listening compre, its ok. the least, 18marks. But i'm praying for full.

After having lunch frens. The guys decided to bet on smth, which I think its quite silly and there's no point in doing it. But well.. its FUN lar. lOls.. and tat's one way of earning fast cash. **grins**

DNT. Sama Sama. tiring etc etc.

Currently Featuring : Ashlee Simpson - Pieces of Me.

9:59:00 PM let 'em go.

Friday, July 02, 2004

Carrot, egg, coffee bean..

put 3 pots of water over the fire

in the first pot, put some carrots.

in the second pot, put some eggs.

in the third pot, put some coffee that have been grounded into coffee powder.(hey hey.. tis is not some great recipe eh.. read on.. )

boil all three pots for 15mins.

take out what you put in.

the carrots went in hard
they are now soft.

the eggs went in soft inside
now they are hard inside

the coffee powder has disappeared
but the water has the colour and the smell of coffee.

now, think about life

life is not always easy

life is not always comfortable.

sometimes life is very hard.

things don't happen like we wish

people don't treat us like we hope

we work very hard but get few results

what hapens when we face difficulties?

now think about the pots
the boiling water is like the problems of life

we can be like the carrots

we go in tough and strong.

we come out soft and weak.

we get very tired.

we lose hope.

we give up.

there is no more fighting spirit

don't be like the carrots!

we can be like the eggs.

we start with a soft and sensitive heart.

we end up very hard and unfeeling inside.

we hate others

we don't like ourselves

we become hard-hearted

there is no warm feelin
only bitterness

don't be like the eggs!!

we can be like the coffee beans.

the water does not change the coffee powder

the coffee powder changes the water!!

the water has become different because of the coffee powder

see it

smell it

drink it

the hotter the water, the better the taste.

we can be like the coffee beans.
we make something good from the difficulties we face.

we learn new things.

we have new knowledge,

new skills,

new abilities.

we grow in experience.

we make the world around us better.

to succeed, we must try... and try again.

we must believe in what we are doing.

we must not give up.

we must be patient.

we must keep pushing.

problems and difficulties give us the chance to become stronger...
and better...
and tougher.

what are we when things do not go well?

are we like the carrot..or the egg...or the coffee bean?

9:35:00 PM let 'em go.

i'm halfway thru chemistry mugging, getting bored already. decided tat i shud blog since I have nth else better to do rather than lie on e bed and fall asleep unknowingly, which I will regret the moment I wake up tmr morning.
hMm.. tmr my sch organised 'Mayflower Idol' instead of the annual Talentime. gosh. I heard some guy sang The Calling's - Our lives in the hall. I'm walking down e stairs(dnt block) when I heard tat tAt tat mOronIc voice singing my fave. song! erm... its dreadful. hahah... Obviously out of tune, trying really hard feigning Alex's voice, once is enough. But he sang it twice! It's like twice the agony ! uMm.. lOlx.. sounds quite exaggerating, am i? erm. wad the heck. I just hate ppl doing tat. Take tat william Hung for example. sIghHhhhhhHh**** How saddening for the music industry...

I feel so retarded. hm.. can't think straight eh. After inhaling so much saw dust, the fever n stuff..... ok... feels like i'm some impaired child in need of intensive special observation care. sigh... ***back to chemistry***

12:38:00 AM let 'em go.

Thursday, July 01, 2004

*frustrated*
why can't i link ppl??!?

10:14:00 PM let 'em go.

din blog yesterday. resting in bed coz i'm sick.
After listening to DASHBOARD CONFESSIONALS - VINDICATED, arr.. quite tired of it already. changed the song back to The Calling - One by One. This song still rawkss.. won't get tired listening over n over n overrr again. =] enjoy~?

6:03:00 PM let 'em go.