to fly.

Tuesday, June 29, 2004

oOo.. just recovered from a mass blackout in my estate. hMm.. my first blackout. really fun eh! get to light candles everywhere... but shortly after I'm done with the darn candles, the electrical supply came back. -__-'' Hm.. quite a fast recovery, it took not more than half an hr. My neighbour had a super duper big torchlight - I think that's a spotlight. some houses switch on their car headlights to provide better visibility. I'm halfway blogging thru stuff, then, the blackout. Its really freaky at first. and to make things worse, I'm afraid of the dark. I couldn't even see my own hand in the dark, felt like i'm blinded by smth. uMm.. the helpless feeling .. *quivers*
The candles caught fire accidentally, had a shock when i saw the fire burning luminously.. dangerous yet uM.. pretty also.

10:36:00 PM let 'em go.

just managed to finish some of my eng holiday assignments. i'm only left with comprehensions, vocab worksheets which I think its a total waste of time to do. I can't really learn so many at once. so yea.. shall copy. better choice. hMm... its.. already 1.50am. Bored really... stucked in tis tiny room of mine.. can't go out of da roOm cause its pretty dark out there. yes, i'm a big time 'scared of dark' coward. YES yEs!
Oh yeah.. today.. felt as if I shoudn't be in school. Sort of, out of e place ? Got lots of mixed feelings inside me, and i dont know what I'm doing the whole day at sch. During english, helen din turn up, end up watching tv inside the room.. aww.. nice air conditioning.. everyone just sit ard and talk among themselves. English is one of the most relaxing lessons among the rest. With ms. helen.. tat easily duped lady... life will be so carefree ? eH?? I don't know what i'm talking already... think i shall end here.

1:40:00 AM let 'em go.

Monday, June 28, 2004

The Calling still rawks.

9:23:00 PM let 'em go.

Sunday, June 27, 2004

just updated tis song.. its from Hanson - Penny and me

been listening to tis song for quite awhile already.. pretty nice. These guys really have good vocals.

12:17:00 AM let 'em go.

Friday, June 25, 2004

*listening to The Calling's songs while blogging*
hMm... tis song really gives me a strong feeling of serenity. weird eh.. but yea... I hate listening to slow, sad love songs when i'm depressed. I rawk on upbeat songs... like.. hMm.. The All American Rejects - swing swing. [ actually, the song's quite a sad one, just the beat that its different ] Though its quite an old song already.. wad the heck ! haha.. I'm feeling rather lethargic when I left home(going to meet my fren up for some studying), just lazy. When i boarded the bus, (usual) plugged in my earpiece... hoping that the DJ is playing some really nice song... HmM.. i could still remember what's the first song. simple plan's - Don't wanna think bout you. That's a nice one.. next was my all-time fave. Swing swing~~~~ aHHhhhh... that brightens me up quite alot ..

ok.. i've said enough rubbish. lols...
As i had mentioned above, i met joanna up for some studying. Hmm.. initially, things were going quite smoothly. hEez.. gradually, we started to talk .. have a new common topic between both of us - Potter. She started to develop a craze over daniel radcliffe (Harry Potter stuff) ahHHh.. it just feels so nice to see someone falling for harry potter's stuff. While recalling a few years back, I don't think many of my friends giv a damn bout tis book. I think, only benjamin is with me? *thx ben, for all the times we share cursing J.K Rowling* LOLX. liew. BEN! how come u're always -everywhere- in my life! hahha... tHx bRudder.

10:43:00 PM let 'em go.

Thursday, June 24, 2004

yes! Finally found tis song! Yeah~~ My all time favourite.~~

The Calling - One by One

The Calling RawKssS!!~~!

hmm.. another nice song fr The Calling will be 'Our Lives'~ Highly recommended by mE!!!

12:48:00 AM let 'em go.

Wednesday, June 23, 2004

early morning. The usual, heading straight for the workshop.... wOw wOw wOw~~ There's actually HAzE inside mayflower~ nahs. my fellow classmate chucked the acrylic piece inside the oven and, obviously cleanly forgotten bout it, went off to work or smth. Rolls and rolls of white smoke emerged out from the oven, along with the pungent smell(extremely toxic, coz it gave me dizzy spells after. Muz b toxic. Had to be) aRGgh. Supposedly, I should be done with my dome(shell) by today. `cause of this 'minor' incident, all trashed and had to be postponed till tomorrow. Currently, ms. quek jie ying is urgently running out of time. the avalanche of homework received during this june holidays, be it from my math tutor, dnt folio, english assignment, physics workbk, etc etc. And i'm left with only... *lifts 3 fingers- 3days la!* this small amt of time left. Ok. I'm always complaining. Yeah... complaining simply makes me feel more… relaxed? Or relieve? hahaha... at least , i can let off some frustration out of me.

ok.. There's something that I accomplished today. gave me a strong sense of satisfaction. yeah~~~ Finished reading a book~ lalala... It was given to me three weeks ago, I should have finish reading it ages ago, well... I'm really busy.
However...today, I just felt like doing nothing at home. But to finish this book. Started off right from the start and till the very last page.
Anyway, this book's awesome~ thx ben! Yeah, u're right. The ending is nice. Really unexpected, ironic twist. Finally understood the meaning of 'alchemist' haha.. thx brudder.. There r lots of sayings and stories... i'm so inspired by it. well.. changed my thinking somehow or rather... hm.. i think i've blogged enough for today.. tata

11:08:00 PM let 'em go.

Tuesday, June 22, 2004

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9:42:00 PM let 'em go.

Monday, June 21, 2004

overslept tis morning.. I'm supposed to be in clz at 8am. Woke up by hMm... 8.30am? Got out of bed right awy, running pretty late u see.. I missed the previous lessons already, don't wish to be so far behind the rest. Gotta start on smth, or else I'll be officially labelled as "doomed". I hafta hand in my folio n everything by aug. I'm only left with a month.. **panic** Then, when i reached the workshop, ok.. i'm really surprised. I thought every1 will be working like hell over their proj. but, haha... all sat together in the usual grp(only a few turned up) Mr tan(teacher) wasn't even there yet. -___-"' After a few minutes upon my arrival, he came. I started to sort out all the loose ends, still haven't settled all of it yet. At least I did smth there. quite satisfied with today's progess. Think i'll be able to finish everything by the end of july. hOOray`~~

Oh yar... Sunday's shopping trip with Janel. hMm.. i'm absolutely overjoyed~ lalala~~ bought a red top at ebase. A skirt at zara. ok.. not bad, you shou huo~ oh yar... saw jo n her couz too. I'm busy talking to Janel, didn't even know who's in front of me. Janel saw them first... Both of us just said 'eh??' and went off. ahhaa.. Ate 2 rice dumplings after i reached home.. aww.. its delicious. yUmmy~

8:04:00 PM let 'em go.

Sunday, June 20, 2004

Currently playing : Iris - Goo Goo Dolls.

This song .. um... made me recall lots of memories, re-playing those really significant stuff that had dawn on me in my empty-mind now... as I listen to this song, again and again...

2:58:00 AM let 'em go.

Sigh... I'm utterly dreadful abt the thought that I'm gonna be back in sch nx mon - fri. **queer sensation** On top of that, I'll be back, officially to school the following monday. Teachers rushing for revisions like lunatics, and we are suppose to LEECH on those in such a short space of time... and i'm still very troubled abt the promised i've made. Ben- ur gloomy bear. DARN, why didn't u fantasies on tigger or smth? aRrghhhHh.. nvm. A promise will still be a promise. I wun dua u again. I PROMISE!

I shall enjoy tomorrow. Going for a crazzy shopping spree.. i'm stuck at home for so many days, all cropped up with hw n all...

1:39:00 AM let 'em go.

Thursday, June 17, 2004

Currently Playing : Outkast - Roses.

hm... *time ticking awy* sIgh.. no work done again. progress was slow.

11:02:00 PM let 'em go.

Wednesday, June 16, 2004

as u can hear(hope ur speakers are on?) I updated a song. From Yellowcard - Ocean Avenue. Been listening this for weeks already.. finally a 'saint' gave me tis to copy n paste on my template.. weE~~

I always listen to this song every night. hMm.. not really EVERY nite.. very often though. sort of perks my spirits.

ar.. suddenly felt a stone just landed right in my stomach. The thought that I'll be back school next week, everday. That's the last week of my holidays!! and now! runied! such dreadful news... sighhH**

So. this means that. I'll hafta finish all my holiday assignments by tis week. WHICH IS absolutely insane...**off to tackle hw**

11:29:00 PM let 'em go.

Feeling rather irritated today. Woke up at ard, 11am. And i planned to wake up at seven. gotta start on some work or i think i'll be sorry. My plan didn't work at all, all crashed up 'cause of my lethargicness. Spend the whole afternoon cutting 16 newspaper articles for my english hmwk, inefficient really. Got that feeling that everybody owes me or smth. wad the heck. nvm...

I continued reading harry potter book 5. And i have around twelve chapters left.(Just started reading it two days ago) This is second time I'm reading it. I find it particularly draggy.

Its ard tea-time when i started reading the book, ate some biscuits, chips n stuff. Lay on the bed for about three hrs. And my fren called just before dinner.(lift off much of my voracious appettite which I had been surpressing since tea-time) And guess what ? He's upset AGAIN. I feel somehow or rather, numb by his daily 'calamity'. Our thinking are totally different from each other. Different attitude in life. I live for myself, my goals n hopes that I have in life. While he is always having diametric contradictions about my lifestyle, etc. I could have just yell straight at him and say " I don't wish to know any of what happened to you today." I could not put myself in his shoes, but I think I can be beside him as a friend, giving him support and not just let him 'die' there in his own thoughts. Ok. I think i'll be ok after a few complains. Just hafta bear wif it. At least I try helping him, I shall have no guilt if he doesn't change for the better. I did try my very best afterall. hMm.. 2.50am now. I think i'll just finish book 5 tonite. watch the sunrise myself.. I have this .. um... quaint feeling inside me whenever I think abt that matter(not the one that i mentioned earlier)... .. .

2:21:00 AM let 'em go.

Monday, June 14, 2004

um... lemme recall how i got up tis morning.. my memory is really failing , and as a matter of fact, dreadfully . i could even forget what i've done just now. what's happening...
ah yes, right. ok.. i'm all wrapped up under my cosy blanket (i stopped using the quilt, the weather these days are torturing. torrid eh, even at night. hate it) Crawled out of my cosy nest, staggered right towards the bathroom, really felt as if i'm carrying a heavy load right on my shoulders, losing my balance . and to make things worse, feeling pretty woozy. I'm 'ping xue', so, i will always have that 'fainty' feeling the moment i stands up after resting quite awhile at a spot/sitting down/or wadever i name it . hafta get up slowly n stuff like that. argh.. that sounds like i'm like some weakling kid here.

Had quite a number of bad dreams too. er. can't remember what the dream was about, absolutely sure that it wasn't pleasant at all. Sometimes i have the same dream , ok.. everyone does. but, the dream i had recently is just like the one that 'haunts' me since i'm young. This particular dream doesn't 'visits' me frequently. once in a few years only. Hm.. *curious* . I think i need some dream-interpreter or smth. er.. drop it. i'm just thinking too much again.. i think someday i'll start talking to myself. but hey. I am doing it now. emotionless pc. sort of feels like i'm talking to myself everyday. I sometimes wonder why someone would create something like tis (blogging). how did this evolved into what it is today? i have so many qns....

2:51:00 AM let 'em go.

Sunday, June 13, 2004

*mmMm*
i'm currently listening to harry potter's movies'soundtracks. 'mischief managed'. the first note really drew back lots of scenes and images into my mind. the flute... the whole band.. mm.. and that part when it reaches the climax , wow, magnificent. The melody's great. Kinda feels that its 'alive', as in that i can feel it changes its mood . aww... really intoxicated into all of its soundtracks. Especially from the prisoner of azkaban ones.. All the scenes are still fresh in my mind, coz i just watched it a few days back. I'm like replaying the whole movie once more in my mind when the music was played. wow~ kinda like 'free movie' once more. lOlx.. kk.. i've made something which is very sophisticated, into smth that sounds so shallow already. haax.. kk.. shalL stop crapping already. cyas. nites~

1:20:00 AM let 'em go.

Saturday, June 12, 2004

yeah!! i'm going out fer dim sum!! hM... its.. 11pm now.. heard that there's one 24hr dim sum at hougang there.. yUmmiCious~

10:56:00 PM let 'em go.

I changed the position of my shelving units n bed. hm.. looks more organised already, not really used to the arrangement though.
When i'm clearing the shelves, i realised that i'm juz another trash dump. lOlx.. so much jUNk eh! sweet wrappers behind the shelves, found a neatly-pressed potato chip wrapper in my storybook(harry potter book 4) oh man.. no wonder there's so many 'uninvited guests' patronising my room these days?!
**sigh** i miss benji. lOLx kidding. idiot.. y go camp eh.

i have nth to say for today. no news. no life. nothing. slacck at home whole day , almost went braindead . I have this sudden urge to spend money right now. Go out and buy something. many many stuff. but, no luck. I'm trapped inside tis lifeless hse. coz, i'm broke~ lalala...

8:35:00 PM let 'em go.

*bUrRrp* just came back fr bbq.. kinda like a grp gathering instead of a clz one.. coz, like e others said,only half the class was present, those who came are mostly the more chatty ones. hahaha... tis is the first time that i ateee so much during a bbq. Normally i'll just pinch on everything.. don't just devour everything like i did today. ok.. devour. nO. just, plain continuous eating. I just felt guilty not able to finish all the food that sihan's parents prepared, i think that's for like abt hMm... 20-30ppl's share? and there's only fifteen ppl. i really pity the host, what are they going to do with the leftovers? there's reallLLyy lotsss of stuff left. should have lighten their burden more eh? haha.. takeaway bbq~ lOlx. supposedly, i really REALLy intend too do that. but.. erm.. some min0r events cropped up and ya, all of us went off quite early.

life's all repleted with ups n downs. If life's too smooth sailing, there won't be adventures, nor anyone would happen to chance upon any new discoveries along the way. gosh.. i could relate such a small event to something so far off... i'm crappy. haha.. absolutely, offically confirmed as the think-too-much sort of person . quite exhausted from all the eating, talking, wandering around the bbq pit.. hMm.. really felt like jumping into the pool for a moment. but nahs, dropped the idea immediately when I came back into 'reality' - > i can't swim! yar.. sads.. i've been nagging.. since sec 1 that i'll overcome my phobia and swim like anyone out there . nvm... i shall just erm.. waiit and see then. Most probably after my o's ?

okies.. tat's all for today~ nites.

12:24:00 AM let 'em go.

Thursday, June 10, 2004

*heaved a sigh of relief*
monthly blues. I think I'm relying too much on painkillers.. sigh*
Been thinking bout quite a lot of stuff these days(or i'll literally go brain dead wif the current lifestyle that i'm in) hMm.. sometimes, i really hate listening to tat particular one 'complaining' (no names shall be named. don't think tat person will know bout tis blog. wadever. i'll use he then) or shud i say, pouring all his woes to me almost everyday. I'm getting tired of this already. The usual "no, i can't come", "i'm busy." typical excuses. I'm repeating tis almost everyday -> " hey stop clinging on to e past, you're missing all the good stuff in life eh! " aRgH. wad's the big deal breaking up? Ok, emotionally hurt. physically probably. But, what's the point thinking more bout it? The problem is still there isn't it? If you bother more bout it, it will only result in magnifying it and not solve it. why not just let it go , keep a positive attitude, have goals/aims in life. AND LIFE STILL GOES ON . sometimes, i just don't understand why couples don't know how to think sensibly when they're in a relationship. ahh... rite, love is blind. Not a good reason.
hMm.. after witnessing so many breakups etc. I still think that at this age, no one . I really mean NO teenager of our age will be able to handle a relationship well. Guess the term 'puppy love' doesn't come by just like that?
Quite complicated thoughts i'm having now, i think whoever reads tis will be completely lost..? anyway, shall end here. nites*

11:46:00 PM let 'em go.

woke up 2.30pm today... wow.. i've slept for more than twelve hrs ? really felt like I'm wasting my time really "well" . yeah, well, mostly through sleeping, lying on the sofa all day long, eyes glued onto the television, remote control on my right, titbits on my left. Mouth exercising at the same time. I haven set any targets or wad-to-dos for tis june holiday. Guessed I really need a schedule or smth. Or i'll be wasting my time everyday, eating, sleeping, watching tv, surfing the net, going out..blahhhs

The first thought that strikes me everyday, will be that incessant pile of wksheets/assesments/wadever! (be it hol hw/tuition/dnt folio, its still requires work fr my brain cells) always leaves me in despair for the rest of the day. quite i suppose. I knew exactly where the prob was, but silly me could only stare at it helplessly. AND only taking action when things turned pretty bad n knotty. My body juz don't obey what the mind commands it to do. I'm juz too lazzy to study. 2 weeks 3 days more before school reopens. Seems to be in 'unneccesary' thoughts of my own, thinking that THAT particular someone will betray me. Whether I could trust him? Am i doing the right thing? aRrGHH.. ok.. haha.. I'm afflicted with paranoia.
Days seem to be over juz within a blink of an eye eh? *sigh* I think i really need someone to give me a lecture.(not nags. things just get worser) a really hard lecture will do. Parents don't bother. I don't bother. Oh gosh. i'm utterly ruined. arrrrrrrrrrr....... waaddeverrr. SLEEP FIRST THEN I SHALL DECIDE BOUT TML, again~

1:32:00 AM let 'em go.

Wednesday, June 09, 2004

lazzy to blog yesterday. reached home pretty late last night, went to meet up with some old frens.. quite a nice "gathering" i think.. Got to know some new frens along the way.
HmMm.. well, it turned out to be quite a surprise... had quite a lot of laughs n stuff.. Such a pity that i couldn't stay overnight, felt like i'm missing smth really fun. aRghh.. nvm.. there's always next time.
Okie.. enough bout yesterday. Today, as usual, Amath supplementary lesson wif Mr wEe. After that, the whole lot of us took bus 132 to far east( me->bus sick -__- yikes!). Then, walked allll the way to cineleisure for a movie-> Harry Potter. Finally eh!
HmMm..oh ya..we mEt a IDIOTIC, SICKENING, BRAINLESS psycho ah peh. We just merely sat on the wrong seats, and tat idiot got so worked up! Even asked what school we were from.blah blah blah. No wonder he's watching the movie himself. alone. arGhh! okok.. jy.. cool down.. lOlx. hmMmm.. as for the movie.. its really hilarious.. Didn't turn out what I expected it to be... cut alot of stuff there. There's only 1 quidditch match, no sight of cho chang n cedric. 'new' headmaster( shrinked. sort of ). The new-defence of the dark arts teacher aint wad i imagined him to be like... hM.. he's tOo pleasant-looking. lOlx..
The book's still the best ( stating e obvious.-__- )
yawn~* gtg zZz.. cya. ~

12:21:00 AM let 'em go.

Monday, June 07, 2004

its been ages since i've last blogged... three weeks probably?

Mids, followed by chinese o's, the food exhibition, band concert... etc etc... Things just happened so quickly eh? I like my new blog... really far off better than tat moonlight thingy. but i still think that my first skin is the best one, so far. hMm.. so many things happened, kinda lost now. Where shud i start uMm...

okie. I didn't meet my own targets for mids. Quite dissapointed actually, could have done better. Nevermind.. I still have the wholeee June holidays to catch up yea.. Chinese o's .. aRghh.. Hope every thing goes smoothly. Did my very best already.. so.. lets juz keep our fingers crossed. A!!

The foot exhibition at expo was a blast. Loads of ppl streaming in... I ate quite a lot also. hEez... Went ard wif my dad to get goodies from those uncles(fellow exhibitors) Don't know them actually, I only recongise the food that they're promoting. hAhha..

Band concert - The Saints~~ lOlx.. I thought it was a musical or smth... ar.. benji.. sala info. nvm.. Thanks for the book yea! The concert is nice, except for some wrong notes played, and the MC was quite a joke that evening... hahaha..

*sigh* Hafta go back to school for supplementary lessons.. though its our holidays now. Gone through ten years of education juz for a cert. that I get end of the day. haiz. k, tis is all for today.. gtg start on some work .. been lazing ard, sitting in front of the tv everyday like a couch potato.

1:56:00 PM let 'em go.